fed up and frustrated

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swim recently took some so called ecstasy pills that he is sure were not mdma. the reason being swim did not experience any jaw tension or gurning or eye rolling, which swim always does when on mdma.

the effects were that everything felt like it was moving past him very quickly, visual distortion (warping and bending of objects). swim did not have a good time and spent most of the night pacing up and down wanting the experience to end.

swim stupidly took the same tablets again in a smaller dose (2 and half, compared to the 3 and a half the previous time) and experienced a simmilar experience although not as intense or annoying.

since swim has had a lung infection and bronchitis which has left him feeling worse for wear and now has swollen glands and his ears feel like they constantly need to 'pop'.

swim is now unable to smoke mj anymore as it makes him feel uneasy, anxious and sick unless he lays down. and his head feels for want of a better word 'messed up'.

swim is fed up of this, but has since used some mdma, alcohol and cocaine, none of which made swim feel any worse, but were not as enjoyable because of this wiered feeling in his head.

the only cure swim has found so far is nitrous oxide which makes him feel reasonable for the short duration but then is back to this messed up feeling. swim is very frustrated and would be grateful for any advice as to cure this problem.

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It is hard to say what was in those pills if they were not mdma. Swim has never personally taken mdma yet, so he is unable to further decipher that for you. Swim has had a weird type of feeling in his head before though, and he found it usuallu helped to try and detox his body a little bit. Perhaps one day take some charcoal or something, very burnt toast would have the same effect. Also try a lot of vitamin c and water, and try to stay well rested for a couple of nights. Try that on and off for a while, and see if improvement comes. Hopefully between giving the body a chance to rest, and getting rid of some toxins, you will feel better. Even if the underlying problem is not corrected form this, at the very very least, your head should feel a little bit better. From how you describe the after effects, it sounds to swim as though you have some sort of nuerotoxin stuck in your brain. Mushrooms always helped swim when his head felt wrong. They seemed to just make everything more normal instead of trippy when swim felt like that though. Also, since marijuana seems to behave irradically for you know, perhaps some soluble magnesium could help alleviate some stress, and can help with headaches too. If thats not srong enough on its own, swim has had success with a kava, valerian root, and blue vervain mix.

If after trying these things, there is still a strange feeling in your head, please try to take not of what it specifically feels like. This should, if nothing else, provide a picture for what is physically wrong, by taking away the stressful symptoms.
I do truly hope at least some part of my response will help you, that weird feeling in ones head is utterly terrible, and swim knows form experience when that feeling refuses to go, one can only pray for death to escape it.

Also, an acupuncturist may be able to provide some temporary relief.

Oh, and if you do see a doctor, please don't goto a psychiatrist, as they will only make you worse. Also if you goto a normal doctor, be careful they do not try to send you forcibly to a psychiatrist or an institution. These people, although they may mean well, are the enemy once your head feels funny. Also, if you have any of those tabs left, I am not sure if there are any around where you are, but perhaps there is a lab who could test it for you to see what it really is. I am not quite sure how to go bout doing this however, as there would have to be a way to have it but not be in possession of it. If there is a way, then that would be helpful, but its not a necessity. If any of these things help, or do nothing, or make things worse, please respond, swim would be glad to give any further advice or suggestions that he can; and remember, keep ur head up.