are the thoughts and "epiphonies" from stimulant use BS?

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SWIM is fairly new to stimulants, he started with:

focalinXL: far far far far most addicting thing SWIMS ever experienced. Granted SWIM'S never dabbed in amps/meth/coke/h/. But anyways, Got rx'd 20mg extended release, all he did was ask for it and got it...good/bad thing? who knows (also got a coupon for a free months supply). Must be some trust thing. So yeah lol extended my ass. anyways the effects were nothing but a roller coaster of extreme ups and downs, SWIM generally had to anticipate a comedown every 5 or so minutes. SWIM can't see this being an effective ER add medication at all, AISE. SWIM read about the rollercoaster effect many others had an issue with as well. Anyways, why waste it, found the easiest way to crush those beads was with a well rounded large metal spoon, and a hard large surface to collect all the escape beads. With this method SWIM was able to get a beautiful eyecandy like fluffy powder of ooohy goodness. If there was enough, SWIM would swim in it.

Anyways, this stuff went up the nostrils like a free flowing river, SWIM didn't notice any uncomfortably it was almost like the powder was going to where it was most welcomed. Heh, sorry for the imagery but this such a seducing powder according to SWIM. SWIM is sure people who are experienced with coke wouldn't care BUT THAT'S OK!. Swim noticed a weird delay in drip and got a little worried, but it came and he actually enjoyed it. No bad taste, or unpleasantness. SWIM will try to make the rest short, Swim got no nervousness at all like he has always gotten from drugs effecting norepinephrine. No side effects at all, unless you count seduction and overpowering of SWIMS strong willpower. The tolerence was insane though, SWIM is sure this is normal. Swim actually decided he liked to swallow the powder rather than insuf. the effects lasted much longer. SWIM thinks it was here he read that someone said SWIT got an rx and the bottle was empty in 3 days? yeah, exactly. SWIMS experience.

SWIM Got off that, too adicting. So Swim is now on 20mg IR generic ritalin twice a day (Apothecon Inc whoever the hell that is). Lots of nervousness (yep, that damn Norepinephrine) SWIM just assumed since it's ir that possibly there may be some kinda of mechanism to lessen the cowndown for the transission to the next dosing. wow, less than 2 hours later. PLOP. no different than "abusing" ISO. anyways just thought SWIM would give a little detailed history before a few questions and suggestions. So...

1) Like the thread title suggests, these thoughts that seem like perfect clarity and epiphanies during stimulant use that swim experiences disappear as soon as the crash starts. they seem unthought out and impulsive, not anything like alcohol impulsive though. So in SWIYs experience or opinion, are these thoughts moments of clarity that should be taken seriously, or are they just thoughts that are only induced by the substance that *mask* themself as clarity?

2) SWIM is always at the computer while on ritalin and finds it to be counterproductive, and seems to make him more aware of a comdown. Can SWIY Recommend something better to do.?

3) the comedown/redose anticipation: SWIM has kratom, vitamin C pills, Klonopin, 500MG l-tirosine pills, and some other stuff. SWIM doesn't smoke pot (not an option), and SWIM doesn't have any other benzos. Recommendations, combinations, caffeine?? heh, any help.


SWIM was also thinking of dividing 20MG into possibly 3 doses throughout the day. omg that's like, less than 7mg (OMG whimp ). But SWIMS body is a life of paradox. And also not looking to tweak or get doped up, just something help focus while getting a mood lift. please do not argue my dosages, just looking for suggestions and opinions.

damn, swim hates the Bioavailability of oral injestion, but is done with insuffilation, and will not IV or shoot it up the spokes.

also SWIM does realize focalin is very new to a lot of people, so if you have any questions SWIM may be able to help.

damn i hope a less dose is more productive.

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