A reflection on codeine

[Tortoise]

The following is a reflection on Swim's codeine use....

Swim discovered cold-water-extractions about a year ago and is very grateful for this, as he has had many, many enjoyable and most-importantly safe experiences since them. He is reasonably strong-willed and has never allowed himself to indulge so much that he develops a physical addiction, but despite his precaution has found himself to be very much psychologically dependant on it. He thinks about it all the time and always looks forward to his next high. He enjoys it so much that he finds it very difficult to go for more than 4 days without indulging. Sadly, he would probably give up sex before he gave up codeine...

What's more is that he has now begun sniffing around for other opiates too. Thankfully, due to a lack of nefarious friends he has not had much oppurtunity to get his hands on stronger opiates but believes that he stepped upon a dangerous path the very first time he used codeine recreationally. Two years ago he would never, ever have even considered using something as taboo as heroin. Now, if he stumbled across heroin, he would most probably try it.

Swim currently has no desire to quit using codeine or other opiates but just wishes that he didn't think about them all the time. Sadly, he now realises that from the very first time one uses opiates recreationally, they can never be the same. There will always be a desire to do it again.