Experiences - Trip Report: The First Voyage

[dr0]

Hey,

Been a while since I last posted, so I thought, why not share swim's first time trip report.

The idea of shrooming, came quite unexpectedly for swim, especially because somehow he thought he just wasn't ready for a psychedelic trip..yet. Anyway one thing lead to another and after some rethinking swim decided, to go for it.
So at about 8:30 PM swim and a friend of his ate 2.5 gramms each. Swiw also had a trip sitter, who swim knows for years and can trust blindfolded. So after consuming the mushrooms, swiw drank a beer or two and swim tuned up some relaxing music for setting the mood.
After 20-30 minutes, it felt that the so called "psychedelic waves" had cast swius loose on "the sea". Everything was breathing and wafting.
Swim lied down on the ground and started admiring the sky - observing the clouds which where morphing into different shapes and patterns, until the sky became a "giant funnel", so that the pipe of the so called "sky funnel" was facing swim.
It just seemed that there was too much information for swius to grab or get hold of. Swiw were considerably taken aback, so swiw decided to have a nice and relaxing trip to the local forest.

The colors, the setting, swim remembers him and his friend trying to explain the feeling to their third - sober companion of the party.
But there just weren't words for such beauty, it was something that could be only felt. After about an hour of bliss and exaltation, swiw decided to go to the beach to enjoy the sunset.
The word "grand" would be too inadequate - swim felt like a million bucks, the bliss and the beauty he felt was beyond words.
I remember, swim focusing only on the sea for a considerably long time, and for him it seemed that the sea resembled "all beauty" what so ever. So swim remembers himself rhetorically asking something like, "See the reflection of the sea? It's the most beautiful thing I've seen in my life" Having said that swim saw the sky and everything else. And again words like „stunning” or „bliss” would be too inadequate for describing the moment, it just has to be felt.

Swim also felt total loss of ego. For someone who hasn't quite understood neither experienced the loss of something seemingly so precious, the loss of ego could be a bigger shock than swiy thinks.

Although, it is hard to put in words, maybe the successive picture swim drew could help.





The dot in the center resembles you as a person - your assets, your self-image. The ring resembles everything surrounding you, may it be the setting, the people (their feelings & thoughts) etc. And the black color resembles what your focused on and where to you psychologically "are".
So on the first picture swim is sober. He is focusing mostly on himself, the ring surrounding the "dot" is quite empty and transparent. The second picture is swim on mushrooms. Swim's assets and self-confidence are quite nonexistent. For swim it felt, like he was "living" outside the dot, in the ring while tripping.
Maybe quite confusing, but it seemed to be the most logical way for describing the feeling at the time.

But the nirvana wasn't everlasting. After a while, swiw decided to visit the shop for a bottle of vodka and some food.
Not the brightest idea eh? It was "Fear & Loathing" first hand. Probably the best keyword for the situation was "confusion in the seventh dimension."
Swim roughly could talk - words just wouldn't come out of his mouth. Only mumbling and somewhat laughter full of uncertainty - it was quite terrifying.
Somehow swim managed to buy the vodka and leave the shop - what a relief. Also swim thought he had seen the worst of this trip.
Unfortunately he was wrong - after a couple of minutes, swiw were terrorized by some drunk angry locals, who were speeding with cars and somehow found that swiw are on their way. (It's a kind of a stereotype of people here in where swim lives - people who like to get drunk, speed on the highway, act rude for no reason, pick fights etc.)

Anyway swiw managed to get away - phew. After that incident swiw had approximately 2½ hours of time left until the psychedelic effects would wear off. Which wasn't so good, cause the mood was wounded to the quick and even an hour while tripping seemed endless. So swiw returned to the house, for some strengthening. Everything seemed quite sad and somewhat melancholical. Organizing swim's thoughts, was something beyond impossible. Swim remembers himself staring at the clock in bafflement. For a second there, he felt like he was a prisoner of his own thoughts, which was quite terrifying.
As time passed, swim started to feel better about the whole situation and it seemed that everything is going to turn up fine after all. With some new assurance, swiw decided to go for a pack of cigarettes and afterwards take a trip to the beach.
A somewhat „clarity of thought” was recognizable. Everything felt beautiful again, but more in a “crystal clear” way, not the former baffling and cryptical way.
After visiting the local shop and the beach, swim and his trip companions started to feel quite fatigued , so swiw decided to hit the sacks and call it a night.

The next few days where rather wearying. But even in retrospective swim doesn’t feel any regret for taking such a “voyage” – it was a significant “eye-opener”, truly “life through a magnifying glass”.

Thanks, for taking the time,
Dr0

Reputation Comments on this post:

	Good post.
	great report!

[Lazarus]

Dr0, thanks for the awesome post!

The picture of the two circles triggers some memories of past experiences to which SWIM can definately relate. SWIM always sort of thought of it in terms of the inverse of a fraction: 1/10000 while sober, and 10000/1 with ego loss. Hmmm, yes, hard to put into words.

Glad that you have an ocean nearby. SWIM loves the ocean tripping or sober. Whenever SWIM trips by the beach, he can't help but feel this immense appreciation for life.. The ocean is where all life originated, and the ebb and flow of the waves and the tides always reminds SWIM of the beating of the heart or the cycles of melatonin production and uptake in the brain, and other organic processes.
Anyway, thanks for the report!

[Humanity]

SWIM couldn't have put it better himself, nice report!

SWIM also felt somehow 'safe', for he knew he was in the hands of Mother Earth (or call it what you want). He felt eternal affection for the Earth and nothing that would usually bother him, did anymore. Like sand in his shoes, leaves of grass tickling his legs etc. - it was Earth! Bees and flies were 'Earth's messengers' and had a positive aura to them, however mosquitos were still evil. That's what SWIM formed in his head anyway.

SWIM probably saw the most beautiful things in his life while tripping, like a piece of treebark. He could've wasted away, just looking and looking and looking. It never got old. The visuals were a huge plus.
The trip down the sandy slope, descending into the forest, felt sooo great.

Don't even get me started on the sunset on the beach... the true climax of the trip. The waves were almost like beckoning SWIM to the depths. It was beautiful.

@ Lazarus: SWIM's can only wish it had been an ocean, it was still just a sea.


It was a wonderful, fun time, and SWIM's definitely going to try psychedelics again.

Hum.

[Lazarus]

Yes, yes.. Sand in shoes and grasses tickling, SWIM knows exactly what SWIY means! Beautiful! Rain, wind, cold stream water, even insects (real ones..) crawling over the skin doesn't bother SWIM when he's at that place.. Tripped out in the desert one time at night. Had the urge to lay down and wait for sunlight to come and dessicate SWIM's body, so that it would be there, a part of the beautiful scenery. Luckily the urge wasn't *too* strong.

[Humanity]

Heh almost forgot to mention, another fun thing to do is stare at a blazing ciggarette.
Just light up and enjoy, SWIM wasted most of his ciggarette just looking at it!

And unlike on pot, SWIM found that shrooms are definitely not an appetizer, he couldn't eat anything, it all tasted bad. Even apple cake and bananas o.o

[root_train]

Swim's tried Salvia, so he decided to try shrooms and really wasn't expecting much, and certainly didn't think it was going to be more intense than salvia... oh how swim was wrong. It was the first time on drugs swim had a WOW experiance. swiys trip sounds special, when swim did it he felt like a God- it was awesome.

[spoony]

swim tried shrooms for the first time not too long ago. wow...swim ate about 6 g dried and stuffed in capsules at about 10 pm. then smoked weed. swim tripped with a friend.

Setting: nighttime on some property with to other people around
this was amazing, just walking around at night.

when swim was focusing on things close up swim would see tiny lightning bolts of red and green

about an hour after the trip set in, swin and buddy went inside and watched a movie and then laid down and enjoyed the trip, smoked more bud, lots of cigs. The lit cig was really fun to look at.

Woke up around 0800 in the morning, and felt very enlightened. 10 hours after starting swim still had an intense head high, similar to a contact high from weed, but more intense. SWIM went for a drive to find food, and at about 1000 in the morning swim finely was back to feeling 100%

this was amazing...will try again, but not for a few weeks...maybe a day trip next time

[spoony]

oh yeah...the best part was the shadows morphing into thing, it was at night, in a slightly wooded area. at one time, a saw a mouth and i walked on the tongue right into the mouth.