SWIM wasn't allowed in + Follow Up

[Nahbus]

Last night SWIM tried salvia for the second time.
It was only 5x, and perhaps he did not pack enough.

The first time nothing really happened, he felt an odd sensation of being pulled, and felt very heavy for a bit.

Last night was weird.. SWIM was in a bad state of mind, but really wanted to learn something then and there, he was looking for answers... someone to tell him things will be ok, and maybe enlighten him with some knowledge.

Anyway, SWIM took a big rip, held it in for as long as he could, laid down on his couch, felt confident.

As he look at his ceiling, he doesn't really remember leaving the room, but doesn't remember being in the room. He was taken to a gate of some sort.. as if he was being checked to see if he could go into salvia land. Then he had a strong sensation of someone, a lady (maybe because he's read all about lady salvia, but who knows). This lady told swim, with no words, that he was not allowed to enter.
THen he was tossed back into the room, and it was as if an invisible cog-wheel was placed above him, and each hump tugged on him very strongly. Very hard to explain.

He then remembers trying to wedge himself into the corner of the couch, face down. Kind of hiding.

He distincly remembers not being allowed in, and being thrown back to reality. It was very odd. Maybe SWIM wasn't really ready? Maybe he didn't do enough?
He felt so confident and ready, though.

He may try this again tonight with a larger dose.

Has anyone else been rejected by lady salvia, and not allowed "in"?