What does one do when he/she just can't stop doing something? Imagine seriously wanting to put an end to an addiction, but as soon as that first urge kicks in, ya give in..even up to the re-lapse happening, you're thinking, "Wow, I don't want to do this, I don't want to continue using this" things like that..but you go on doing it. You do it anyway, and then you feel super guilty about it, and later you realize it was stupid and you tell yourself over and over to quit and don't go near it again, and then an hour later you do.
Is this just a case of not wanting enough to stop?? Even if the addict honestly, seriously KNOWS the addiction, and really wants it to stop. Being lazy? A need for therapy or something?
I apologize if something like this has been posted..I'm sure it has, cuz this is probably the basis for every addiction..but just wondering if an addiction (or just attitude toward the addiction?) is usually this bad, like the point of knowing it's bad and you don't want to in the process of doing it, like it becomes literally impossible to stop yourself.
Hope this makes sense

/ Any input on if this is what addiction usually is or if this is extreme or pathetic behavior..would be greatly appreciated.