Using drugs to escape the boredom of real life.

[darkglobe]

Watch the film "Instinct" (Turteltaub, 1999).

It certainly filled me with a true appreciation for merely existing.

~Dark

[zera]

How anyone can be bored when the Internet exists is beyond me. Get Bittorrent, start downloading a shitload of television shows and movies, install linux on your computer and learn it, find a subject you like on wikipedia and learn everything about it, find a couple of blogs that you enjoy and start reading them, find a porn fetish that you're really into, etc.

[knot]

Sknot has the computer addiction and the other addiction that he indulges in once a week. Sknot is bored and single.

[darkglobe]

"Sknot" should get a partner and a life Only joking.

As zera said, the internet is a fantastic ground-to-boredom missile!

SWIM uses drugs-forum to learn about drugs, as a hobby. SWIM also loves to indulge in Wikipedia world and is currently reading around the topic of polyneuropathy and olney's lesions. He knows it doesn't sound interesting, but it is to him.

Seriously though, watch "Instinct".

~Dark

[knot]

Originally Posted by dark_globe

"Sknot" should get a partner and a life Only joking.

Sknot feels like a booger on the wall of life. Sknot's dad died so he takes care of his sick elderly mother full time (2 days a week off) Sknot would love to have a girlfriend but she prolly wouldn't understand.

[izzy31]

SWIM completely understands how SWIY feels about life being boring. Try doing things that give you an adrenaline rush - and I mean panic-adrenaline- rush.


EX. - The feeling SWIY has when they're about to get into a fight - or when they're paranoid and scared, like when a cop is looking at them suspicously and SWIY is carrying something he shouldn't.



Try to overwhelm yourself with adrenaline naturally, but make sure you do it to the point that you go into shock (not literally but yeah BE VERY NERVOUS) . this helps decrease the numb feeling, but you have to make that adrenaline rush your hobby - do it more and more and eventually you'll lower your high tolerance of life, things will seem more appreciated and entertaining because your being able to feel it somewhat now.

[iamsostrange]

SWIM has tried very addictive drugs, but never got addicted because SWIM knows better.

However, SWIM smokes weed everyday because SWIM gets bored without it. SWIM sort of wishes SWIM never let weed become a daily habit, because SWIM's entire day seems pointless without smoking.

SWIM finds that reading about drugs online are a good alternative to actually doing them. It helps with the boredom, when drugs are all you can think about -- just start reading about them & before you know it, time has passed. Write about your experiences, write fiction about drugs, start your own drug blog, anything. If drugs are all you can think about, then find a hobby that allows you to think about them -- without actually doing them.

SWIM also recommends a good Bret Easton Ellis novel. Reading his books can make you feel like you are on drugs when you're completely sober.

When SWIM goes 30 days without drugs, the boredom tends to go away. But SWIM knows all too well that the first 30 days can be rather dull...

[stroke]

Haha... funny to see someone opposed to prescription psychoactive drugs like anti depressants on a cocaine use forum. )

I dont pretend to be an expert on life or cocaine... but I completely understand where Ace is coming from when he says that boredom is a symptom of depression. Depression is a chemical imbalance in the brain... and I really believe chronic depression to be hereditary and for the most part, out of your control. Sure... you learn how to sort of talk yourself out of it... and you learn how to cope with it... but it's there. It goes away for months at a time, but it always comes back. Depression is very real, and medication can really help.

I get bouts of depression, for no apparent reason sometimes, that are accompanied by this sort of boredom with life. For me, nothing seems worth while anymore. Things that I used to think were fun or important no longer seem to be. Even important things like going to lecture and holding down a job seem meaningless. I sleep 12-14 hours /day because I dont feel like theres any reason to get up in the morning.

SWIM used to self-medicate similar symptoms with drugs, like Cocaine - much as Ace suggested. I became addicted, and this exacerbated my depression - and prevented me from seeking the professional help that I really needed.

I dont know what the point of this post is... but I dont think anyone should be trivializing depression or trying to convince people not to seek professional help...

[Paracelsus]

Originally Posted by stroke

SWIM used to self-medicate similar symptoms with drugs, like Cocaine - much as Ace suggested. I became addicted, and this exacerbated my depression - and prevented me from seeking the professional help that I really needed.

You became addicted to SWIM doing coke?? Can ya clarify that one?

Glad to see a newbie using the self-incrim rule wisely, from the first post.

I personally tend to think depression is mostly caused by external factors. If it's chronic and Ace didn't just have a bad day when starting this thread, getting prescribed to antidepressants might help keep the situation under control.

[AceOvArts]

Its good to know SWIM is in the safe hands of the DF...LOL What would he do without you guys.
As for the internet being boring ...hmmm when youve had a good 10 years of it, sexual fetishes and all youll see it just becomes another thing youve done. SWIM was very much into grabbing the latest movies, then old 70s comedy, then audiobooks.... blah blady blah.... sex is fun there is no doubt, but once youve seen 1 fetish movie youve sorta seen em all (well the ones you can handle that is). Anyways, to bring this upto date, I think SWIM is going for some medical help...just to keep the relatives happy, then once the hole at the end of the tunnel appears I guess he will be back to doing what he always does.....looking for the next high. Such is life....ahhhhh death (suicide).....seems such a great thing to look foreward to when you're coward, you know, taking so many benzos that you dont wake up...sometimes its good to wake up thinking what a stupid ass he has been though. SWIM would never do it though (I hope), I guess thats where you could get unlucky.

Just to keep you up to date, last night swim took 80mg of nitrazepam (mogoadon) just to get some god damn sleep. At 12.30 he was writing (scrawling) a letter to his mother explaining all the stupid things he has done in the past, stumbling around the house, falling over then finally going to bed. Today he gave that letter to his mum (god knows why, probably a cry for help?) I guess its time to see the old Doctor to get some drugs that people think are good for you.
Half the time these idiots know nothing of what were all going through, yet they still write out the scripts.
hmmm...that red car does look good though Nagognog

[snapper]

SWIM copes with addictions by avoiding them. SWIM tries to rotate substances of abuse and stick to ones that are not harmful when using regularly (ie - no coke, heroin, meth, etc). SWIM has always been a substance ser/abuser and this is unlikely to change. SWIM is at peace with that, and tries to focus on things with low damage - ghb when it was around, kratom, cannabis, etc. SWIM thinks some SWIYs are just wired that way.
SWIM thinks boredom is a primary symptom of depression. SWIM has had bad episodes of depression which has caused SWIM to do nothing, as opposed to SWIM's normal very (hyper)active self. SWIM thinks everyone needs to find their happy medium between drugs, activities and real life, and that a balance of the three will eventually surface..

[AceOvArts]

SWIM has decided to stay on anti-depressants for the forseesable future (its levelled his moods very well). However he still has a strong urge to experiment with drugs. This months agenda is kratom and coca tea. Unfortunately this is in addition to his usual intake of alcohol and some cocaine. Also he is using tobacco snuf which is very pleasent.
God what else can he cram in he cram in without killing himself ?