I need help quitting coke

[austinbartender]

Here's my story, it's kind of a long one-


I'm a 20 year oldUT student living in Austin, Texas. I've been a habitual pot smoker for about six years, and in that time I've tried every drug I can think of excluding heroin, crack, pcp, and dmt. Aside from my marijuana use I've never really used any drug habitually, until recently that is. I had my first profound experience with cocaine last new years. I was at a party, and I happend to walk in to a room in which a friend of mine was cutting up some lines. He offered me a line, and I accepted. A few weeks later, I asked a co-worker of mine that I knew used the stuff if he could get me any. Within an hour he took my $20 and handed me a tiny amount. I remeber getting home from work that day and staring at that bag for at least 15 minutes, debating whether or not to just flush it. I gave in to my poorer judgement, and here I am close to a year later and a habitual user of the stuff. I've since become very good friends with the guy who gave me the stuff on new years, and he hooks me up with killer stuff for a fraction of what I payed at work. However, the stuff has affected my studies, depleted my savings,I use it at work, and worst of all I keep it a secret from almost all of my friends; even my roomates don't know (or at least aren't certain) that I use it. I know I have a problem and I genuinely want to quit, but as soon as I've been out of coke for a while I seem to forget all that until I have more, and then I feel so ashamed and guilty.





I need advice.

[ihateme]

Good Luck.. it is hard, but it is possible... Just stay away from all triggers.. that was the only thing that i could do to stay clean.. The guy that i used to buy from i was falling for, but i complety cut him out my life when i decided to get clean, i really dohope you best of luck and keep ur head up.. and remember it will be ok..

[djryand]

What's up fellow redneck/Texan hahahahaha. There are only a few things you can try.....

1. Use your will power and try your ass off to just stick to alcohol and pot. Maybe not even alcohol, because any coker knows that can possibly bring the coke fiend out in you.

2. 12 steps baby!!!! You know what I'm talking about. I had to go through that shit due to fucking up on probation. Had to go to an in-house rehab for 3 months to save my sweet little asses virginity. The 12 steps works for some, but not all. You have to really want to quit. If not, it can still help you think about your addiction and yourself. It really helped me see what I was doing, and cut down. It can't hurt man. If you are serious, go to a meeting or two and just try it. What's it gonna hurt?

3. Ibogaine. Of course it's illegal here because it would be cheap & effective in drug abstinence and they don't want that!!!! You would have to go to Canada or Europe, but I hear the success rate is pretty good; at least for quite some time.

I would say good luck, but it is all about what you really want. If it is fucking up your life and you want something better, you have to drastically change your life. It's the hardest thing you will ever do, but it's worth it. Even if you just try, you can say you tried.

You will be in my prayers.

P.S. Under the table, I would possibly recommend any good psychedellic for your troubles. They are very good at making you look inside yourself and help you get to the root of your troubles.

[betty_bupe]

Dear Austinbartender,



Try Ibogaine...Take a little trip to Mexico, and relax in a cheap
cabana on the beach. I got off opiates- which, by the way, are
harder to kick than coke- by using Ibogaine. It basically resets
your brain to a pre-addiction mode. You should feel NO
withdrawal/crash, and you will be fine in a couple of days.



If you have any ?s, pm me....



Betty_Bupe

[CABS205]

I know how you feel. My pretty much broke. My love of my life is gone. I can't focus in school. I hate going to work (unless I'm picking up some), and all I want to do is get high. Or atleast, that's how I felt before I woke up from this nightmare. I got so messed up one night and a so called friend took advantage of me. All I remember was feeling so dirty and that because I was so messed up, I didn't have good judgement.


First, I locked my stash and locked my keys in my car. So I haven't done it in a few days, which is good for me.


Second, I talked to my doctor about it. So they're helping me with that.


Third, this my sound silly. Go to the library and read ALL about cocaine. I've read so many horrible stories that scared the living shit out of me. So that made me think.


Don't be afraid to ask for help from any of your friends and family. Remember, you have to trust them.


Note: I asked my girlfriend at the time for some help and she was so disgusted with me, she dumped me. So be careful, who you tell.


GOOD LUCK!

[paulywould]

Don't feel ashamed. Addiction is not a moral weakness or lack of willpower, it is a disease. dealing with reality and being around other people will help you overcome your addiction.

[AZMEO]

Had the same problem. There is one simple answer. Fill your time with meaningfull things and people. While the answer is easy, doing it is another thing. Also you will have to lose your friends who use otherwise the constant exposure will bring you right back in. I would say good luck but luck has nothing to do with it. It is all a matter of the strength of your character.

[AZMEO]

I might also suggest doing some research on ayahuasca and addiction it.


take care

[aMorphius]

It's difficult for me to understand all of this advice about taking one drug
to get off of another! If you can get to a Narc Anon ( like AA) meeting,
there will be people there who are as interested in staying off of drugs as
you are. Stick with this croud for a while and hopefully they will replace
your former druggie friends. I know this sounds like preaching, but it has
worked for many.

[sunyata]

Substances like Ayahuascha and Ibogaine are not drugs the same way as coke and smack is, they do not necessarily produce euphoria, but rather puts you in a very deep trance state, just like hypnosis. Just taking the drug will in itself not be enough to break a habit, you need a guide(Therapist, sjaman,) to help you "reprogram" your mind, there are several techniques for doing this and not all of them include psychedelic drugs, like hypnosis. For those of you who are interested in how such experences might affect behavioural patterns and perspective I'd recomend Abraham Maslows "Religion, values and peak-experiences". It's a heavy book, but very good and can be downloaded somewhere on the web, but I can't remember where. Different techniques will work for different people, I don't think we'll ever find a common cure for addiction.

[jatzstoned]

if you absolutely cant help yourself, tear up any money u would use to buy the coke , its a waste, but u gotta do wutever it takes

[newman]

Hello all, here is my 2 cents AND VERY GOOD ADVICE.


Having been there myself. And quit a few times, last time was for good though.


Anyway what will help is an ethnogenic plant generally called Kratom, That has the abbility to relax the body Even in the most discomforting times. Also you might try to get some clonazepam to help with the stress. And some clonide to help with the sweats of widthdrawl.


Also there is some evidence out their that Zyban or wellbutrin (same thing) will help with cocaine widthdrawl as it does with smoking.


f you have any questions about any of these substances please feel free to PM me. I'd like to help if I can.

[paulywould]

Try writing down all the bad shit that is making you want to quit in the first place (my sponsor had me do this) Than when you feel like doing a line or shooting, read the paper over and over. At least it might knock some sense into you. Also writing it down and reading it is far more effective than just "knowing bad shit happens sometimes" or "it coats to much money" I tried that, and thought about it all the way to my dealers house. It's better if it's written.


Paulywould

[uqlfy]

Really feel for you man. Used to be pretty heavy on it myself.
Only thing I can say that helped me get clean was I stopped chilling
with the people who I used with. Now I was able to do that cause my
former fiance was screwing my "friend" for free shit and I found out.
Its been almost 3 years now and I hardly ever even think about it. Get
out meet some new friends. Join a book club anything to keep busy. Its
not impossible to stop and it does get easier. Good luck.

[2flydragons]

You're not too far gone... At least you have the presence of mind to know that you need help.


You must study the drug that has you in its grip....Study the types of addiction and the many ways that you can fall into thier trap.


The power to change youre life is well within youre grasp.. do not believe that OTHER PEOPLE ARE WILLING TO HELP! The power is youres only


Drug use is indeed experimentation and if you do not have a solid knowledge base and a complete understanding of the possible downfalls, youre experiment most likely end in failure and even possibly worse the end of youre life {yes there are worse things than dying}


So stay away from this experiment and study the efects from a distance the drug of youre choice has been the down fall of a many well meanig people....And if youre not carefull you will join the poster child of ignorancethat signifies youre plight......


Hang tough and if you need anymore detailed help, Please reply





All My best wishes, Steve

[paulywould]

Some people are able to experiment with drugs and stop when they want without help,complications or the obsessive compulsion to use more of the drug. More power to 'em! For many people, those with addictions, eliminatingdrug use proves to be a VERY difficult task. Unfortunately, you never know which person you are unntil it's too late (for addicts)


Paulywould

Originally Posted by austinbartender

I know I have a problem and I genuinely
want to quit, but as soon as I've been out of coke for a while I seem
to forget all that until I have more, and then I feel so ashamed and
guilty.

Austin that is EXACTLY how i am with coke.

I wanna stop sooo much, but as soon as i havent had any for a day or
so, i forget all about WHY i wanted to quit and just go out and get
some.

I have just joined this forum as have been sitting up all of last night
MASHED on coke. Its pretty sad. I spent whole night in alone just
playing on laptop. Still havent slept, head is pounding, and feel like
complete shit!

WHY do i do this??

I feel completely trapped.

I have NO mates who dont use coke so cant really escape it
there and i am £20,000 in debt so cant exactly afford to escape
to another country.

im 27 F and back living with my parents (such joy)

I cant hold any job down for more than a couple of months when i use coke and i dont feel i control my life in ANY way.




and i dont know why im posting this dreary long message, but sorry guys, i kinda needed to get it off my chest x

[oldskoolraver]

Hey keep your head up!

Anyone can kick anything, Believe in yourself! drop any
friends that are a bad influance, Its hard parting ways with old
friends but when you start seeing friends die like I have you sober up
quick! Fill up your free time with things you like to do, All us
addicts stop our hobbies deep into addiction. Idle hands are the devils
tools! That is when you get cravings when you are boared!

@ my old methadone clinic I saw an article on a anti seziure drug
that was succesfully treating cocain addiction, I dont recall the name
though.



Good luck friends,

Don't TRY DO IT!

Chris

[windysan]

Narcanon is Scientology. Stay FAR away. AA and NA should help if you put forth the effort.

[raven3davis]

Tell your dealer that you dont want coke any more and to not sell it to
you. If he really cares he won't sell the shit to you
anymore. Also you could try to talk to one of your friends, or
even your roomates. Maybe you could hang out with your non using
friends more often to get your mind off of cocaine. Xanax might
help too. Best wishes - good luck.

[uqlfy]

I was thinking that maybe wellbutrin could held you kick habit, also
librium these are both prescription meds talk to a doctor about getting
on one of these. And if you dont want to discuss cocaine use just say
you want to quit smoking and a friend told you about wellbutrin.

[egoDEATH]

The easiest method for solving (or atleast controlling) any kind of addiction is to workout on a regular basis (atleast five days a week). A habitual workout regimine has been clinically proven as a cure for depression. This is not the magic key everyone's looking for, but it helps.

[Nicaine]

Originally Posted by newman

Also there is some evidence out their that Zyban or wellbutrin (same thing) will help with cocaine widthdrawl as it does with smoking.

Good advice... in my experience, not only does it help but it partially kills the coke high, so you feel mostly wired and paranoia but little euphoria.

And once it's in your system, it stays for up to a week, so it's not like you can quit for 24 hrs. do some cola and expect to feel the high normally.Edited by: Nicaine

[Nicaine]

Cola is "psychologically" addictive. You can get a period of anhedonia (inability to feel pleasure) after quitting, the best help for that is an antidepressant (SWIM recommends Wellbutrin). Other than that, the way to do it is to sever all your connections and put it completely out of your mind. If possible, take a nice long vacation somewhere it isn't around. When you come back, pretend you never heard of the stuff.

Aside from some brain chemical depletion, it's a very mental dependency. Very weak even compared to nicotine, in my opinion. You really just have to decide you're going to stop, and stop. Then make sure you get on with your life in ways that are rewarding.Edited by: Nicaine

[tayo]

SWIM is sure that enough MJ can kick any habit, but... the best way is to set a date about a month in advance and keep reminding yourself that it is the date you are going to quit for good. Tell everyone else that is the date you are going to quit for good. And hold yourself to it, you'll likely binge to the extreme the night before but make sure the supply runs out that night. The day after just drink lots of water, eat nutritiously, go for a long walk, hit the weights a little if you work out, and just keep yourself distracted and yeah away from it... read up on all the bad effects that cocaine use can have, make it your main focus, drill the bad things about it into your brain until you are preaching to others not to use it. Also Rhodiola Rosea could be used effectively at 6x the reccommended dose the supplement requires, it may cost money but not more than a cocaine habit. Rhodiola kicks ass. And SWIY should kick SWIY's ass into self-control. Maybe even have a psilocybin experience to reflect on SWIY's habit. Mind over body.