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Here's my story, it's kind of a long one-
I'm a 20 year oldUT student living in Austin, Texas. I've been a habitual pot smoker for about six years, and in that time I've tried every drug I can think of excluding heroin, crack, pcp, and dmt. Aside from my marijuana use I've never really used any drug habitually, until recently that is. I had my first profound experience with cocaine last new years. I was at a party, and I happend to walk in to a room in which a friend of mine was cutting up some lines. He offered me a line, and I accepted. A few weeks later, I asked a co-worker of mine that I knew used the stuff if he could get me any. Within an hour he took my $20 and handed me a tiny amount. I remeber getting home from work that day and staring at that bag for at least 15 minutes, debating whether or not to just flush it. I gave in to my poorer judgement, and here I am close to a year later and a habitual user of the stuff. I've since become very good friends with the guy who gave me the stuff on new years, and he hooks me up with killer stuff for a fraction of what I payed at work. However, the stuff has affected my studies, depleted my savings,I use it at work, and worst of all I keep it a secret from almost all of my friends; even my roomates don't know (or at least aren't certain) that I use it. I know I have a problem and I genuinely want to quit, but as soon as I've been out of coke for a while I seem to forget all that until I have more, and then I feel so ashamed and guilty.
I need advice.
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