SWIM has decided to quit stimulants -- help appreciated
SWIM recently picked up another 250mg of MDPV (stimulant research chemical, dopamine reuptake inhibitor). Before receiving it he had 4 or 5 days free of stimulants, and it was pretty nice.
SWIM received the MDPV recently and started using it without caring to monitor his usage at all. Here's the deal: He does not know how long he's been rolling.... could be 12 hours, could be 24, could be 3 days. He doesn't know how much he's used, aside from it being less than 250mg. He does not know why the clock says 7:45 PM, when it should be around that time in the AM (?). He is browsing the web in a truly obsessive/compulsive manner (gallon jug of water + piss bottle + food + benzos + MDPV next to the computer, no breaks for 6-12 hour stretches).
He has not eaten anything nutritious since starting this roll (just simple carbs & fluids). He's not keeping track of his prescription med usage, other than "take some occasionally." He's not answering phone calls, or leaving his bedroom other than to occasionally grab something in the kitchen and then run back to the PC. He's not talking to anyone, and he's been angrily chasing his cat away when it gets near and meows/distracts from obsessive activities. He's overstimulated with a rapid/irregular pulse, red/sweaty face, tiredness when standing up, and aching lower back & neck muscles.
SWIM realizes now he has to quit stimulants or suffer a complete disconnect from reality and everyday life (and that's probably being optimistic). His plan is to use the rest of what he has (not much choice, psychologically speaking) and then not reorder anything again, period. He may use kratom a max of once/day for a while (not beyond a few weeks) to help with his moods and the feeling of wanting to be high on something. After he's done with the kratom, his plan is to go on Wellbutrin as an antidepressant and badly-needed motivator in life. He's got the script, just needs to bring it to the pharmacy and pick up his supply.
SWIM would appreciate any/all help in sticking to his plan... he'd also be grateful for any comments and suggestions related to this matter. PM's preferred for the sake of privacy... he's already embarrassed to be confessing this stuff, and asks that people not "rub it in" or publicly tear apart his recent bad behavior and lack of control.
Last edited by Nicaine; 13-12-2006 at 05:25.
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