Ritalin F*ed my life up...

[RasonUK]

I'm a big fan of drugs, but i will never advocate giving drugs to kids, especially strong drugs to treat minor problems.

Growing up i was hyper and i loved it. I was in trouble everyday and i loved it. My mum put me on ritalin and at first i loved it.

It just made me smarter, i was getting in trouble less but still messing about and getting almost straight A's(for the first time). Life was all easy.

So what am i talking about, i think that any drug taken wrong can do harm and any drug taken by the wrong person can do harm. Some people make mistakes with drugs and i don't have no pitty, some people don't get on with drugs and for them i don't got no pitty.

I have pitty though, for any underage kid given mind altering substances. Why? Minds are still developing and i don't know if that increases the risk of damage or not, but i know that if their is damage you got to live it down for a lot longer.

I was 13 been on ritz for about a year life was good and then all i remember is i started getting tired in lessons, i tried to stay awake, but it was hard.
It went on for a couple weeks and i went to my psychologist and said my drug weren't working i didn't feel the same, they put my on concerta?(why?)

No luck with that either and spent months playing aorudn with dosage and preps till i think i just stopped complaining over my summer break from school.

Then i joined my new school and becuase i was tired and stressed i got depressed, then they took some attension and sent me to a counciler.

They started giving me thrapy for depression not thinking to look at what potnesially might have been the cause(and what i know was the cause).

This went on for two years i tried to kill myself about 11 times(I weren't too good at it thankfully) i was in intense pain that ripped at your guts.

I was on all the anti-depressants but still taking ritalin and then, i stopped it, i figured it weren't helping me any, nothing really changed exept the rush of stress i got when i took it, so it must have made things alittle easier on my brain.

I didn't stop feeling depressed until i was 16 and even then life was shit, i just didn't bitch about it. I started using alcohol to relax myself, not get p*ssed just relax myself so i feel human again. That had to stop because i was risking becoming an alcoholic and my therapist said i was avoiding life.

I joined gym after i stopped being able to get decent erections with my girl and firgured if i became more manly/huge i wouldn't have the problem. I did get huge in about 6 months 200lbs, nice looking, but i still had the ED problems i ws tyring to find out why, viagra didin't work nothing did.

SWIM learnt about anti-depressants and erectile dysfunction, SWIM learnt about hormones testosterone, estrogen, prolactin etc...

SWIM started using steroids to see if they would bring my dick back to life, but they didn't...

SWIM was at a loss, SWIM was taking anti-prolactins anti-estoegens and taking steroids, so then SWIM figured it wasn't my tesosterone to blame(wc makes alot of senshihe to me now, SWIM don't think he ever had low test levels)

Then i read more about cfs(Chronic fatigue syndrome).

I had mentioned it to my phychologist when i was depressed blaming the ritlain drug for it but he was dismissive, so i kept on using,

Now i re-realsied my problem had nothing to do with my male hormones, it was my cns/adrenal system.

My doctos were dismissive when i borught what i'd learned to them, so iswitched doctors and he prescirbed me soem GHB.

Ghb is a cns depressant the oppsite of ritalin, it's the only thing that made me feel close to normal again.

Ritalin presciption is out of control in UK and USA and it's all driven by money, you can't drug kids to make them behanve it's like kiling them and worse it cna be like toturing them.

I wouldn only wish what i've been through on ym worse enemy, just so he'd know what i've been through and to see how he copes with it.

Any people with kids out there for the love of god don't give your kids ritalin or any cns stims. I won't give my kids(one coming now) no drugs no matter how outta control they are , none yall heard of the belt?

Rason

Long post, had to share, i'm still p*ssed off at my doctors.

Reputation Comments on this post:

	very interesting account, if only the health experts would listen to people with expereinces like yours
	Great experience report
	despite the self-incrimination, very good post.