Importance of the HIGH

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Hey guys. Swim has lately been running into some serious pitfalls when Swim gets high, pitfalls which a two-month break didn't fix. Has anyone else run into these idea/problems and have any suggestions on how to overcome them, or how to avoid them?
First thing: Swim has somehow started to genuinely believe that what SWIM thinks about while high holds great significance to who SWIM is and how he thinks in general. As a result, Swim gets highly introspective and insecure almost every time, and starts going a little crazy.
Second thing: swim feels like swim loses some degree of control when high. This didn't use to happen. Before swim could always just not let himself start thinking about something swim knew might upset him, and keep thinking about things in a positive frame of mind. Now swim can't, and swim finds he has trouble escaping from that negative frame of mind once in it.

Swim feels like all of his problems originate from how he "views" the marijuana high. Swim feels like if he could just better or re-define what he should "get" out of it, and what its significance is, he would be able to overcome these problems. Also a conception of what the significance of one's thoughts is during the high. Does anyone tell themselves something when they start thinking negatively in the high or going into a bad state of mind? Thanks for reading