Controlling opiate addiction. pls help..

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I found the following written on a notebook laying in the street. It contained some information from a guy who calls himself "SWIM", but he wrote it in the first person. I just want to make it clear that the "I" in the following sentences does not refer to myself, the poster, but to SWIM. I wanted to see if you guys could help this SWIM person out, and I'll find him and give him your responses. Here goes...



"I am currently having problems controlling my drug use.

I have seen two Doctor's who havent helped at all. They tried to put me on antideppresants which made me feel awful.

I have contacted several counsellors but having never been in the situation themselves, I find their advice of little help.

I have come to this forum to hopefully get some advice from people who have been in a similar situation to me. In turn I will offer any helpful advice I can to other members seeking advice.

This post is a bit mixed up because my head is all over the place at the moment.

I have been using GBL for a while. It's just been the last two weeks where it has got out of hand.

This binge (I have been on a couple of binges before) - I am nearly through a 250ml bottle. I have been using daily around the clock and it is causing great dificulties. I nearly crashed my car a couple of days ago. I had to pull to the side of the road and go to sleep. (I try to avoid driving while intoxicated but I had accidentally taken too much. I know this was stupid and I deeply regret it).

I managed to only use three times yesterday because I went out on the town last night drinking.

Once, when I woke up at 5am. Again on the way to work. Had a shaky, deppressive day at work (normally I would use a couple of times at work). Then had a hit when home from work.

I managed to aviod taking any G last night when I was drinking. But today I have hit it again because I have a massive hangover. I find the G to be the best hangover cure. It completely releives all the symptoms, just like "hair of the dog" drinking does. That is originally why I started using it - as a hangover cure.

I have a genuine addictive personality and had started drinking (hard liquor) the day after a night of drinking to cure my hangovers, which seem to effect me a lot worse than the average person. This led to drinking the next day after that because I had a hangover again, soon I was drinking every night and became an alcohlic (so my doctor says - I never drank at work or in the day during the week and didnt get withdrawals but the doctor told me I was an alcoholic).

G helped me cure my "alcoholism" but became a replacement. Then I quit the G but replaced that with Methadone (don't even ask how that happened), then I quit that and experienced my first ever "withdrawals", which I still am not really over mentally.

Then I became addicted to benzo's which I was using to get over the withdrawals from the Methadone. Withdrew from them, clean for a few months, then started drinking again but only sensibly (once-twice a week).

Then started using benzo's again, and G. Successfully cycling booze, benzo's and G for a while.

Now the G, benzo's and booze has got out of hand. Booze - 4-5 nights a week. Benzo's every night. G every day. What a fuck up.

To be honest, I felt the best I ever had when I was clean. But it got so boring, being strait all the time. Getting fucked up has been a routine for like 15 years, and its great fun. I have tried most things in life and getting high / intoxicated is one of the most enjoyable things to do.

I need to sort myself out but don't know how to get a proper balance sorted.

How do you guys cycle your use of "drugs"?

Can anyone offer any advice?"

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thanks for sharing SWIYs experience. Good luck.