SWIM noticed that new members are encouraged to make a 'first experience' post in order to provide value to the community. She'd like to share her first experience with hydrocodone.
Background: She's had opiates prior to first experience. However, she was always in pain at the time and never felt any particular 'warm n' fuzzy' feelings from them.
First Recreational Experience Dose: Norco 10mg hydrocodone, 325 APAP
SWIM had some residual pain from a surgery. Probably not enough to warrant an opiate of this strength, but she took it willingly nonetheless. For some reason, she'd forgotten all about 'vicodin', and what is and does. A friend handed her 2 pills and said "when you go home and take this, you're going to feel really chatty..try not to go overboard emailing people.."
Well, SWIM took the first dose around 9 or 10 at night. She felt giggly and, yes, very chatty. It was hard not to reach out to the entire world with a long-winded message of love. It reminded her somewhat of drunk dialing.
SWIM'S second dose, she took the following day. This is when the real magic occured.
Bliss! Relaxation! Imagine going and going all day long. Traffic irritants just roll right off your shoulders. Everything is 'a-ok'. No one and no thing can kill the buzz, and yet it doesn't even feel like a buzz. It feels *smooth*..like one's body is finally doing everything it should.
Around 3 or 4 pm, SWIM has a personal insight while making some tea. She decides to lay down for a while and meditate. Now, this is somewhat personal. She was meditating and ..how to phrase this...you can probably guess. Self-love.
As she lay there, she went into a trance, centered on an object of recent heartbreak. The thoughts and feelings which came rolling over completely erased that heartache. She was suddenly liberated from month's of depression. It was like talking directly to God, and finding out everything's ok.
Yes, this had a lasting effect. The changes were still in place once the buzz wore off.
While she still find the effects of this drug/dose pleasurable, they're nothing near like that first time. Maybe they shouldn't be? She's never chased after that feeling and accepts that it will never come again. No regrets, though. No regrets at all.
29-06-2006, 23:51
First Real Hydrocodone Experience
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