The trams were about a month ago. I think for me my situation is a little unique since i was on 3 different types of medicine. Trams, vics, and percs. The trams I was on for the longest. Vicodin here and there, but the percs I only took 60 in the last 4 months or so. I think its a combiination of being on different drugs
like this for several months.
I had weeks where I was off them, just to try and keep my tolerance down, and it was always a bad week. thats when I realized I was addicted to these pills.
I dont know exact dates, but the last time I took a tramadol
was probably a month ago.
The last time I took a vicodin was 3 or 4 weeks ago.
and once I stopped the vicodin I went through the typical withdrawal
, and started the percs for a period of a week, which ended this monday..
So I have been on alot of different types of these pain killers in an attempt to avoid getting addicted to any one in particular but that just doesn't work that way.
The tramadol withdrawal wasn't really a physical withdrawal, just mental torture.
I have to believe most of those are out of my system except the percs that I took up until monday of this week, which puts me at day 4.
Its hard to find people to relate exact experiences to. I realize that. I also realize everyones withdrawals are different, it seems to attack your weakest points. In my opinion the depression and anxiety is the worst. Maybe that would be different had I been on different drugs.
I'm also under alot of stress, and the stress seems to be amplified. I could normally handle it, but during withdrawal its all so much worse. I find myself worried sick about things that I wouldn't normally worry too much about.
I dont have a choice, I realize I have to stop this medicine. I dont have any in the house and I made sure of that before I quit monday. I expected to be misereable for a while.
I dont care what doctors or anyone says. FOr me tramadol had serious addiction
issues just like the other pain killers.
Maybe I'm just looking for someone with similar experiences, maybe I'm just looking for a place to vent my frustration. Feeling like a loser for getting myself in this situation. I am truely hoping to feel semi normal at 1 week out, this may be unrealistic.
The only good thing I did do, was I would take 1 medicine at a time, and then stop it. for a month or so, but I would just switch to something else shortly after that. but I think the all added up affect leads for pretty serious withdrawal in the end.
The mornings are worse for me, havin to face the day. After I get done around 5, I seem to relax a little bit but I'm still not myself. Judging from other peoples posts, this is going to take a while.
slaveknowmore: how long were you on, and what were you using.
You couldn't be more right, these pills all make you feel good. When you stop you feel bad basically. I guess until your brain balances out.
One more note, I tried to drink alcohol
in the past, I'm not a drinker for the past year because I didn't like the anxiety I got from it, and I figured I'd have some wine to help me relax that made things 10x worse for me. Thats what triggered my panic attacks. I'm not making that mistake again.
Right now is 84 hours in. I'm going to be functional today, still depressed and anxious. I am sleeping though so at least I'm not having the total body aches.
I'm trying to remember when i started taking this medicine, I can't remember exactly when I started taking it regularly, my best guess is 6 months or so. And everytime I would stop I would get VERY moody and agitated and not know why. This forum is explaining alot to me.
This time its differeent because I dont plan on going back, so I know its for good. So maybe my mind is just making it harder for me to accept this.
The ONLY thing that helps me is solid excersize. It gives me a brief sense of accompolishment and lets me relax afterwards. Today I plan to get several things done.
read soem posts about caffeine
. I drink alot of coffee
in the morning. Maybe thats why my mornings are the worse for me, after my coffee I usually get very anxious which is not normal. I'll have to cut that back.
I really appreciate anyone who is just willing to talk to me about this. my wife doesn't understand.
If it was a perfect world, I would take a pain pill when I needed it only on a day when I am hurting so bad I'm limping, but thats just not possible for me. I wish they took the pain away, but didn't make you feel so happy and energetic. thats the addictive part.