Brit, if you decided against the lope method, or feel it didn't help with you, you could try researching Vitamin C therapy as well. I have heard a lot of mixed reviews but mainly positive. I plan to add it to my regime very soon. One thing I thought you could do to kind of experiment and see if the shots would help is either get a few shots of 5 hr energy which also has other additives so check the label and make sure you are agreeable to those things. I HATE energy drinks and even most soda, occasionally have a cup of coffee
in the morning but have recently started experimenting with the 5-hr energy and have been able to tolerate it well, and it does seem to help a bit. I only take half the bottle at a time though. It has niacin which in some people can cause a temporary flushing.
Brit we have talked before. If you don't mind what else are you doing to combat this. Do you excercise, go for walks, play with you child, watch TV, basically do stuff to get your mind off of drugs
and how you feel. I still strongly feel that if you want to feel better YOU have to be proactive about it. I don't think you are going to wake up and feel great anytime soon, if you are just relying on and waiting for that to happen. Yes every day your body will adjust to a degree, but given your history of use, the amount and length, I am wondering if the detox is the only thing causing your problems.
One last question, how motivated, willing are YOU to feel better, start a new and better life.....what are you willing to do and what are you not. Asking myself those questions, researching self-help ways, and then finally doing them was what got me through some exteremely difficult periods of depression/anxiety without the aid of prescription drugs. I've mentioned before that I went through grieving, losing my 2 mos old daughter.
Yes, at one point I thought F* it, and thought about staying as messed up as I possibly could on my opiates
, and I was on some STRONG ones, until I just didn't wake up perhaps. I felt that guilty and missed my daughter so bad. However I had two other ones I loved just as much, and couldn't give up on even though I struggled. The emotional pain literally felt as if I was being torn in half over it.
I've said it before and will stick to it, I AM NOT STRONGER than you, well at least in the sense that I am as strong as I want to be, and so are you. Were not talking benching weights here, we're talking matters of the mind, heart and soul. Us women are particularly wired to deal with such things, and have much more strength then we realize. Once you decide to be strong and get better and don't leave yourself another option, YOU WILL FIND A WAY!
Sorry if I seem hard on you but I believe in you, and I feel for your daughter, and you as well, I guess because it hits so close to home. I'm afraid if you don't get yourself to a better place soon you are an big dangerous of relapsing. I have been here often lately offering my help, so I will respond asap, and usually within a few hours. Take care, and I'm also praying for you and your family.