The most important thing is your resolve, your trust in you plan of detoxification, and support from others. You have it all. Doctors say, detox, esspecially detox from opiates
spent at home is dangerous.
I decided to take two weeks holiday and spend my detox on psychiatric clinic under doctorīs control.
When I came to reception, the first thing was to take off all my clothes and let nurse to search potentionally hidded drugs
on (in) my body and in my baggage. It was really nasty, but I understood the sence of this step.
First day, I get 12mg of Suboxone
and 100mg of benzos
in two doses. The effect was, I slept 20 hours non-stop. When I woke up, I couldnīt snad up, I couldnīt move, walking, I couldnīt speak. When we went for dinner, I fell on stairs. I found it probably very funny, I laughed for nearly one hour.
Doses of Suboxone and benzos were reduced every day. First tree days I only slept. Then I started to comunicate with other people, it was really cool. Everyone was my friend, because we all had the same problem. I have never been so drugged by opiates before.
After my daily dose of Subuxone got under 2mg, my feelings started to change. I stopped to comunicate, I couldnīt sleep and I felt very depressed. I missed my family, my dogs, my home. After ten days of detox I had no pills anymore. I have never felt so bad like this before. When I told the doctor how I feel, he answered, that it is normal, I should have expected it before. The detox is over and I must ONLY stand it. The day after I told him the true - I felt worse than the day before. He sent me to hell with smile on his face.
Somehow I survived the last day of detox. My only wish was to beeing at home. The day when I finished my detox I had already two wishes - to get home and to have my drug
asap. I felt sick, disappointed, ashamed and guilty. My addiction
is stronger than I thought and I lost that time.
This is my experience about hospital detox.