was pondering about this earlier today. When swim first started smoking crack
, he could enjoy the high and felt virtually no paranoia at all. as swim increased the amount smoked and increased usage, the amount of paranoia swim felt increased A LOT. swim is now at the point where even after one hit, swim is overwhelmed with intense paranoia and if swim takes a couple hits, he is filled with a feeling of impending doom...like just waiting for the men in black suits to pull up and kick down the door...or as the username says, swim will just stare out a window because swim "knows" they should be looking for something
what swim is wondering is has swim's crack usage altered the chemicals in their brain so much that they will always feel the bad side effects
without being able to enjoy the high?
swim used to be an intense coke
IV'er, almost everyday for 2+ years until swim moved to an area where heroin
was huge so swim started speedballing
...swim eventually did a lot of damage to the veins so swim decided to stop shooting and in the process, picked up the pipe. the whole time swim used to IV coke, they NEVER got paranoia from it. not once. but it seems that the 1.5 years swim has been smoking crack, it's been getting worse and worse, a couple times swim had a psychotic break and lost touch with reality