"I hate when I get in these moods where I crave any drug I can get my hands on. I would probably take anything you could give me (maybe with the exception of coke. Been down that road and I don't ever want to go back. I had my second chance after being addicted, and I can't let that happen again). Just wish I had something besides benzos right now, or at least more than 15mg valium left (already took a real low dose of chlordiazepoxide, maybe the valium and a shot of alcohol or something will cheer me up). I could go for some opiates. Too bad I'm broke and my car isn't running. Pretty much screwed and sober. What do you all do when you're craving drugs? I'm keeping busy but still can't get it out of my head.
I hate having this addictive personality. I'm not even addicted to anything right now (besides cigs, possibly valium but thats more for social anxiety, I take it just about everyday) but I'm totally craving anything (mainly opiates for some reason. haven't even done any opiates in a long time). I think I'm addicted to just plain doing drugs, but don't get these cravings everyday or anything. It's weird. I just don't want to be sober at all right now. Anyone else have these drug craving moods? At times, like this, being sober is kind of aggrivating. Ah well, just had to vent. Comment, suggest, flame away"
After reading what SWIM wrote, I realize it sounds pretty sad/desperate. Bleh. Oh well, I'm sure a lot of you can relate to SWIM here.
EDIT:
Swim said:
"Oh, I just remembered, I have some old methcathinone leftover. But it's like super dirty and I don't have anything to clean it up. I'm a bit weary on taking it because of how dirty it is, and it probably isn't even half MCat. Plus there is a very little amount. Hmmm"