the growth of my psycoactive attraction

[The_Great_Sage]

I have recently returned to my favorite drug... well no it is my all time favorite site of all time. any way, me coming back to this spot has brought back many memories of when i found it. i was younger, not by much but a little. and it was when i was first fully accepting that i did drugs and liked it. it was during the summer and i had recently gotten some new friedns, all rising potheads. i tried some drugs and liked. me and one of my friends hung out alot and were the most enthusiastic about experimenting with different drugs. it was amazing, the feeling of being completely happy in summer doing new drugs sharing the new world with a equally inebriated friend. and all i did was get high and find new was to get high. and party. it was great. i still party and get high all thime on alot of shit, but it has changed. like there was somehting that i didnt know or see or something. the reason i said i was younger is now i have grown a worry or acknowledgement for the world. cars girls jobs social shit friends all that shit. i dont mean in some childish high school way, but more along the lines of, i was happy then and didnt give a shit about anythign but did it awesomely, and now i try to do things and have a conscienceness to what will happen next it sucks. im still happy these daysbut not that almost ever-present euphoria. i think it may be a realization of adulthood or something, but i just want to know if any one knows what im talking about or if its all in my head or something. any one had any similar evolutions in life. this post seems kinda homosexual, but i knew i could trust the awesome community of drugs forum to help me out or to totally bash my thread. peace guys.