Originally Posted by classic
I was hospitalized for saying I had suicidal ideas. They took me off the klonopin
which was of great benefit and the doctor in the psych ward switched me from zoloft
25mg to celexa
20mg. What sort of effect will this have?
When I speak to my regular psychiatrist, I'm going to try to get her to put me back on the klonopin so I can handle day to day personal interactions. I don't want them to be thinking I'm abusing my meds, and my doctor took me off the benzos
cause I was young.
They were extremely beneficial. Is it a good idea to ask my original pdoc for this?
Long post ahead!
Celexa works well for me. I take 40mg of that daily which is the maximum dosage people should really take. I have not taken Zoloft. From my experience with SSRI
's, I don't benefit from them alone. I have panic attacks and severe anxiety and that's why I also take clonazepam
. The combination of the SSRI and the benzo
did not help my rapid and extreme mood swings which later was diagnosed as bi-polar II. Lamictal was then prescribed to me next. It is what helps me to be rational before emotional. My goal is to change myself and get off the medication. By change myself, I mean balance my life so that depression, anxiety, and uncontrollable mood swings can be managed through rationalization with drugs
If you have the money, it's not a bad idea to see your original psychiatrist and see if he will help you and listen to your symptoms. If you do not feel he is willing to help you, then move on to the next doctor. The first doctor I saw 6 years ago told me to "find Jesus." Yeah, seriously... very offensive thing to say to someone who is not a Christian!
My second doctor was great but my insurance ran out and I went without alprazolam
for almost two years.
My third doctor at my college's clinic put me on Lexapro
and clonazepam but I was having psychotic episodes and yelling matches with my roommate. I would go days without talking to my girlfriend and even skip work and just go get a doctor's note.
Eventually I moved and got a job with good insurance and am with the doctor I have now. He is absolutely the best. He has allowed me to change medication when I told him how I was feeling and what symptoms I had.
Be honest with your doctor if you really want help. Lying is "drug seeking behavior" and doctors can read it right from the beginning.
I am now on Celexa and Lamictal daily. I take 2 to 6 mg of clonazepam depending on the panic issues I have (sometimes I have panic attacks while driving and in my sleep... and while working that seem like heart attacks). When I was a lot younger, I used benzos recreationally. I have lowered the frequency and amount and they actually work again. I told my current doctor about that and he understood that I was self medicating because I was trying not to have rage issues all the time.
My only complaint is that my sex drive isn't what it used to be. Masturbation was a nightly ritual before and between meds, and now I have zero libido. I am hesitant to take any more pharma meds just because I'm already on so many. One of the reasons I want to get off of mental meds is because I very much used to enjoy sex. My boyfriend thinks he's doing something wrong sometimes or that I'm not attracted anymore but that's not true at all.
Have you considered therapy along with medicine? It helps a lot of people but I'm a student of clinical psychology so therapy isn't useful for me. I know their methods. I am reading about meditation, healthy eating, trying to exercise, and am on birth control to see if my mood disorders are related to my menstrual issues. Homeopathic/natural healing is a great goal for anyone with any sort of personality or mood disorder that isn't severe like schizophrenia, fractured or multiple identities, or borderline personality disorder. If you use illicit drugs and alcohol
to excess, that will impede progress. The only exception is marijuana
. Marijuana can help some people and their conditions but is not helpful with others.
Anyhow, if you can, I'd like to know what you decide to do and how Celexa works out for you. Please update.
If you have any questions/comments, I'll be checking this thread.