Subs is just like methadone
. Opiod maintenance. Works a bit different of course. Wanted to rid my life of opiates
100% and not be 'dependent' on a chemical just to feel 'normal'. You arent even normal anyway, you are just numbed to keep your disease in check. Well, at least I was.
You wont see me at the clinic ever again or giving them tons of cash ever again
By the way, I do believe in sub or methadone detox to ease the withdrawal
. But not maintenence, especially MMT. Subs are supposedly a bit genter withdrawal, but if you look around, you wont find that to be that true.
Not sure how long you have been on maintenance, but think about what you want. The longer on maintenance, the harder it is to get off. With methadone that is true for sure, wouldnt see how any different than subs since its a long acting opiate
that hooks into your brain very tightly. And its only when you try to get off you will see how bad its hooked into you.
Knew a dude that was on subs for 7 years. He was STILL sick after 5 months even after jumping off the lowest dose possible. Just educate yourself on long term maintenance. And PAWS
as well, since longer on maintenance, the worse your PAWS will be, driving you back to opiates/opiods. The worst part being the sleep. Know people that kicked long term methadone and 3 years later and sleep still aint right. You can speed it up by lots of exercise and eating right. Sitting around and eating like crap, paws may never leave. You are only 18 man, have your whole life ahead of you. Kill this disease now while you can. You dont want to end up like me, thats for sure. Or even worse, 40 years old and still on maintenance. And the grand finally, maintenance for life.
But I know how it is. Day to day heroin
addiction is a miserable way to live. We take the easy way out and hop on maintenance without even thinking twice about it. I did the same.