Originally Posted by swampbox
SWIM has been doing several batches of cocaine
over YEARS.... and always rarely feels anything. SWIM
also has ADHD. connection?
Yes! Exactly same here, well I feel some anxious effects, 5 minutes of feeling like my brain is clear and a fog has been lifted. NOTHING pleasurable, if anything I hated the feeling of coke
, but I stuck to it for that little window I got into clearer and calmer thinking. I felt normal. It's a weird thing to say but anyone with ADHD who's been medicated knows what feeling normal is. It's this fog that lifts, these simple things you couldn't process now flow easily, and if you dose right, that's it, no euphoria
, excitement, mania, highs/lows, you're just able to focus instead of always getting distracted by something more exciting.
When I got introduced to cocaine I consumed insane quantities to try to feel what my friends were feeling. More than anything the drug
causes me insane anxiety. This got worse over about a year until I reached a point where you couldn't pay me to take a line. I tried crack
just to say I'd done it, and while it was wiping my friends out on the floor, it did nothing to me except make me tired.
To take this story to its extreme, I ended up overdosing on cocaine and having a grand mal seizure. Guess what I was doing at these near-fatal levels? Calmly studying in my room. No partying, euphoria, just great concentration, and some anxiety and irritable bowel. It took going to ER to be referred to a psych who immediately realized I was classic ADHD (worse than most - touching on the Aspergers spectrum). It's why I always had big goals in life but tripped on the details, why I had to work extra hard to develop my social skills, and why I had been drawn to stimulants
for self-medication, such as cocaine and before, inhuman amounts of red bull.
FuriousB added 12 Minutes and 29 Seconds later...
Originally Posted by tatbat
I have an ex who is also an ADDer and after we broke up, he became a little crystal head. He and his friend (yet another ADDer) warned me to NEVERmess with stuff like methamphetamines for the fact that one person's high is an ADDer's temporary feeling of normalcy.
The first time I saw how true this was, was when I gave one of my Adderall
to my girlfriend at the time because she thought she might have ADHD. I gave her 1/2 a pill to account for lack of tolerance. I took my meds at the same time. 40 minutes later I was catching up on the boring work I couldn't focus on, when she burst in wanting to go out and party, she was HIGH, Euphoric, bouncing off the walls. Skip the psychologists, that's the acid test right there. Even the first time I ever took my meds I felt nothing like that.
A few days later, she stole my adderall bottle. She was addicted like /that/. Few weeks past that we broke up.
FuriousB added 33 Minutes and 30 Seconds later...
Originally Posted by tatbat
I have an ex who is also an ADDer and after we broke up, he became a little crystal head
If you're ADHD and addicted to crystal, the path is without a doubt to see a psychiatrist and get Desoxyn (methamphetamine
). This is an easy path with no withdrawal
, no more legal risks, highs/lows gone, safer dosages, legal to drug test for and to posses, CHEAPER than streets. If you're really ADHD you just want to be normal. Desoxyn does it best, and it's always in your system so cuts down on cravings and highs from bumping/smoking. My humble experience.
, did your ex per chance have an anger problem at any time before/after crystal? I know a lot of girls who's ex had anger issues either exclusively before or exclusively after (only the girls noticed this, not the guy friends, sadly). I'm curious if there's something to it. I live in the SF Bay Area so sadly I know way too many people caught up in this drug.