Cocaine Will Never Leave Me : Cravings after 4 months abstinence

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I haven't used cocaine for nearly 4 months. I was eating a salad at Wendy's recently (a salad for Christ's sake) and, for some reason, the smell took me back to cocaine. I smiled, but then I frowned. It seems, at least once a week, if not more, I'll have one of these flashback episodes. I was using flour to cook a while ago, and spilled some. Cleaning up the white powder on the table made me think of..yep...cocaine. Am I cursed to feel this way forever? I can still "smell" it in my nostrils sometimes. What's going on here!!!!!

By the way, I don't even WANT the stuff, it scares the hell outta me. Who needs a heart attack, heart failure, or a stroke? Those problems were enough to get me to stop in the first place!