Rin finally was able to get back on here after needing you guys in the past few days. It's relieving.
Anyways, Rin has been on Apo brand Clonazepam
for (she could go back and look in her threads) but *maybe* a bit over a year nor or close to..regardless, she abused them at first, has posted of that.
She now has gotten good with strecthing them out until she usually goes the last week, sometimes more than a week, often now only 4 days or so without until her re-fill (4mg a day, sometimes 6).
This last wihdrawal was the worst Clonazepam withdawal she recalls having-physically.
hydrochlriride for a year straight, non-stop, could have died too many time, those were bad withdrawals, but in her recent memory, yeah, this last 4 days maybe, have been tiresome, painful, suicidal in and out (death not an option, don't worry) but yeah, just painful. The mornings were the worst because it takes so long to sleep even though you're thoroughly exhausted but your body just won't stop aching, burning hot and cold, headaches, nausea, can;t get comfortable to sleep because it even though you move, it doesn't, like arthritis pain would do..poor comparison, but..it takes hours upon waking again to recover from the night. There's more, but you guys know..
The point- I got my re-fill today and they switched me to Mylan
Now, some of you claim to feel no difference and others say it puts you into withdrawal
..and therein lies my fear.
I cannot judge yet, having just got them again after all this, whether the brand makes a difference or not. I had soe beer and weed
to cope this morning after coffee
, until I got my meds, so here is that mix, plus, I still hurt and am tired.
I cannot yet judge the brand until I have only the meds in me I guess.
Um, yeah, my fear- and my hope.. is they'll work or I'm in shit for a few more days until I can see about switching pharmacies if I have to and bring in these meds to see about getting the other brand, IF they don't work. Usually I can feel the effects when I get them again fairly soon, but is it the pills that aren't as good or is it that my body is still....
Ri knows better, and realized she just wrote a bunch of I's and you's and am willing to take a negative rep fo that because she's too ____ to fix it all, not out of disrepect to the rules
, she knows...she just really, really doesn't feel up to editing all that. Or at least give her a day or two.
She opened her bag and saw the Mylan name and was just thinking, "fuck". She's already heard a bit about the differncs and *at this time* really does not need to go into more withdrawal especially WHILE taking the drugs
. It's one thing to not hve them and to go through it , but to have all you have, and need them, and are all ready in withdrawal..
I guess no one can answer what will happen, she just needed to express this fear to people who would understand because it's been *hard* not to talk about it much, even though she has let it out a bit elsewhere, it's not the same as being here.
So, she supposes either the brand is crap or she'd be feeling *more of a calm* than she does right now, because she's been through the days without before and getting her regular Apo brand will set her straight again quickly..but she still hurts.
This hurt could also be attributed to being on it for longer, so every wthdrawal will be harder, ad take a bit longer to feel okay from. It's up in the air right now.
She's trying to not let this brand swtch upset her mentally because if it doesn;t get better, she has options, but after this couple days you know..you just want to receive the familiar medication that you know will bring you back up and the anticipation of getting it again, after this, and then finding a change, was frankly, yeah, a piss off. You just want things back to normal, but..
So, Rin will gve it a day or two (even hough she's never, ever had to wait for Clonazepam to make it all better quickly, but again, is it the brand, or is it that this benzo
withdrawal just took it's toll a little harder and therefore will take a little more to recover from.
Again, bad enough to not have them and hurt, than to have them again and it isn't working quickly to make it all better like it usually does.
Rin just needed to babble and thanks.
No answers to offer for this thread. Apo-Clonazepam is the only brand I've known and it's always worked.
I took my first dose of Mylan-Clonazepam a few hours ago now, 6mg to make up for the last few days, and I still feel pain.
I'm doing better/in and out...but this morning I was beginning to lose it mentally finally without them, just all over rage in the house. Back and forth to bed because one tires easily, but bed hurts.
Yeah, Im' more calm mentally now, but I became so with the bit of weed and a beer earlier today before re-fill.
Phsycially, I am doing better, but it's not happening as quickly.
Point" will it be the brand that is the issue or the fact Rin's withdrawals get worse the longer she's on them so, its just shit luck she received a new brand while coming in/out of a painful withdrawl and that's why it's not working as quick- the brand is worse or the withdrawal was worse.
It'd be nice to have her regular type so she could gauge how badly her body is addicted to these pills. Something familiar. If she had her regular, and took them and by this time still felt this way, she would know it was her.
Mind you, she feels better than she did yesterday.
Stop typing. Not really in focus. She guesses she'll let you know whn the pain is gone, and she's taking this type, how it works compared to her regular brand. Otherwise, there are too many variables to know which is which.
The pharmacists would know these things, one would think, and has a record of how long one has been on X drug
, so , and yeah, emotions ae coing out right now, why would they (not their fault I guess if the entire company switches brand companies fo certain drugs) but...wouldn't they know that it hurts...