Gods Gifts Opiods!

[Red_Baran]

Swim just has to admit to someone that swim has a problem with opiods.<?:namespace prefix = o ns = "urnchemas-microsoft-comfficeffice" /><O:P></O:P>


Swim has a binging problem, swim has always felt the need to binge, when swim was young swim would binge on food, then when swim got a little older it was booz for a few months, then swim binged on DXM for months then swim went back to food (swim means massive amounts of food) when swim hit 200lbs swim quit binge eating, swim started to do valium swim was taking it by the handful did this for months then added xanax to the mix at this point swim was doing like 80Mg to 100Mgof valium and 8Mg to 12Mg of xanax a day then swim bought a mass amount of nocro 10s and started to binge on them as well, at swims worst point swim would take 5-6 valium 10s 2-4 bars of xanax and 5-8 norcro 10s just to wake up swim was getting all this for very cheap almost free because swim sold as well. well swim ran out of valium after about 5 months and quit that cold turkey then swim ran out of the nocro and quit that cold turky and finally swim ran out of xanax witch swim tampered down before swim ran out (swims main source stopped selling). then swim would take X everynight swim could swim did this for about 3 months then swim stopped because swim was getting sick of being tweaked out all the damn time. then swim was clean (but weed) for about2 months then swims friend started to deal opiods so swim would grab one here and there, and it got worse and worse swim started with buying 10 loratab 10s and that would last him 3-4 days to buying 5-8 a day, then swims friend got a script to oxy 15s so swim bought a few of these and swim started to do 4 or more of them a day and swim keeps doing more and more. swims habit is around 80$ a dayof what ever opiods he can find. Swim just did 15 nocro 10s and wants to cry swim is now back to being sober and is now out more money then swim had (swim took out more then swim had in swims bank account to buy the junk)<O:P></O:P>


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swim can not stand sober life, swim has GAD as well as SAD and opiods and almost any intoxicant helps swim with his disorders and makes swim feel "normal" <O:P></O:P>


Swim is a server at a restaurant and with Social Anxiety Disorder, its a job swim can not do sober, swim has tried in the past and ended up passing out and hitting his head on the server station from a massive anxiety attack (this is when swim was sober)


Also drugs seem to help with swims waight problam, when swim is on a binge swims looks his best 147lbs 9.5% body fat 5'8 blueish green eyes blond hair cut body, butany chicks looking for a drug adict as a bf? i think not(swim at one point on the food binge was 200lbs and around 29% body fat)


Swim also has a lot easyer time talking to girls, sounds childish but im not a kid, just very shy, and when on opiods i can talk to even the hottst chick!<O:P></O:P>


Swim doesn’t know what to do, swim likes the money swim gets from serving witch ends up to being like 12-15$ an hour and for swim age and location that is a shit load of money per hour. But swim can not do it sober.<O:P></O:P>


i guess swim really doesn’t have any questions, swim isn’t sure what swim is going to do yet, swim keeps saying hes done with pills and the next damn day swim will go on a massive search to get more pills and find some money (swim does not steal, deal or lie to get money)<O:P></O:P>


Swim just figured out swim has abad problam tonight after doing mass amounts and feeling almost nothing


swim is discusted with him self Edited by: Red_Baran

[NS29]

maybe this sounds stupid.. solving one drug problem with another drug.

but has swim ever tried gbl/ghb?

helped swimmo a lot with his anxiety attacks and SAD.

[Red_Baran]

yes swim has hurd of G, swim is unable to find it.


swims first day sober (but weed, thankgod for weed)and its killing swim

[Alfa]

With your tendency to addiction, stay way clear of opiods & opiates! Your question is complex, because it lacks info on why you have an urge to binge.

[Red_Baran]

Not sure why swim binges, swim has done it for years, since swim can remember. swim has many mental disorders, swim does not like sober life at all.

Swim has been clean for more then 24 hours, swim wants to die...

[Red_Baran]

Swim failed, its thanksgiving and no one to spend it with, so swim grabed some pain killers from a kid that owed swim some money. swim didnt relize it was really this bad

[Alfa]

You need help. This is your life. Grab control now. Have you looked into iboga theraphy?

[sands of time]

Man, I know what your talkin about. After awhile, you just kinda find excuses to take pills after stopping. The anxiety attacks are probably intensified when you go without any drugs, which makes it even harder to stop. Most people eventually get to the point when they realize they have to stop. Unfortunately, most of these people hit rock bottom first. Get clean, cause things will not get better this way.

[Red_Baran]

OMG swim just got a ton of xanax from dude who owed him money as well. SWIM KNOWS he has a problam, he doesnt know what to do about it, swim always finds excuses "o my backs fucked up [really is but theres no resion to snort 40mg of oxy to kill the pain]" "o its work i have to deal with people its ok today" "o its free" "o i made a shit load of tips"


swim just cant stop coming up with excuses to bindgeEdited by: Red_Baran

[Red_Baran]

yes i have looked in to looked into iboga theraphy i cant affordto travel out of the US, and i think its illegal in the us.


but swim would love to try iboga, read lots of reports it seems like it would work for me

[Red_Baran]

Swim can not stop the circle, swims buddy owed him some money, agin swim was paied with pills, then later swims buddy broke up some 15's andswim blasted thoes to. swim doesnt know what to do

[deji]

Methadone will help you probably.

[bonghed]

Originally Posted by deji

Methadone will help you probably.

But wld he end up on 800mg methadone a day?

[deji]

80mg is just a blocking dose is all. Also depends on how long he has been abusing opiates. Take the average 21 year old who has been shooting heroin for a year, and he will be fine on 30mg. Most likely he will still want to get high though. That is when a higher dose is needed. Alot of times, people love the way the methadone makes them feel, so they keep raising the dose. They also continue to use for a while, so now you are taking methaone + drugs. Once you stop the drugs, you will need a higher dose. It is 100% possible though for some people to start on 30mg and not take another drug, and be fine on 30mg. But like I said, most people want to still get high so this doesnt work. A blocking dose prevents opiates from working, and also takes away the cravings, so that is why most people end up on it.

So it all depends. You just have to start the methadone and see.

[bonghed]

Originally Posted by deji

80mg is just a blocking dose is all. Also depends on how long he has been abusing opiates. Take the average 21 year old who has been shooting heroin for a year, and he will be fine on 30mg. Most likely he will still want to get high though. That is when a higher dose is needed. Alot of times, people love the way the methadone makes them feel, so they keep raising the dose. They also continue to use for a while, so now you are taking methaone + drugs. Once you stop the drugs, you will need a higher dose. It is 100% possible though for some people to start on 30mg and not take another drug, and be fine on 30mg. But like I said, most people want to still get high so this doesnt work. A blocking dose prevents opiates from working, and also takes away the cravings, so that is why most people end up on it.

So it all depends. You just have to start the methadone and see.

Also i hope he know's what he's doing as methadone (as you'll know) is very easy to od on. so should definatly not start at much more than 25-30mg even that could be dangerous? just be carful

[deji]

Well, yeah. The doctor will only give you 25mg the first day. Then you can go up 5mg or 10mg per day.

Don't drink methadone from the street. Join a clinic if that is what you want.