Experiences - 1.5g Dried Amazonians TRIP REPORT

[what?]

At 10pm on the 17th july me and my girlfriend both had approx. 1.5g of
dried amazonian's. The last time we tripped my girlfriend couldn't stop
laughing and this in turn made my trip amazing. This time she wasn't
laughing as much. The come up was normal, with a little anxiousness but
we were coping with it. Then all of a sudden I got an intense feeling of
panic, like someone had whipped the floor out from underneath me.
Seconds later I found my feet again but was still in shock at the panic that
had just overcome me. I realized that the panic was related to the feeling
of being lost and losing control, and that these were feelings i've had
since childhood. I was aware that I was causing these feelings but
couldn't escape the loop.
Because we had such a good trip a few weeks ago we were trying to
recreate this, but when it was not working I began to panic about what we
would do instead. I kept thinking about what was happening to me, and
trying to compare it to how i normally feel. This i suppose was me trying
to not let go of my normal reality.
I realized that I have two very separate personalities; a very shy, insecure
side and a comedian side which is very confident and strong. I realized
that I developed the comedian side to compensate for the shy side. When
I understood this I slowly switched on the comedian side and became
confident and euphoric. Which was GOOD! phew, i thought.
It was really enjoyable for about 20 mins, with me pacing up and down,
performing a comedy routine for my girlfriend. I was getting hot so I took
my t-shirt off. I felt amazing, so strong and perceptive. I was
remembering things from my past that I had completely forgotten and
could smell lovely homely smells from my past. Then I coughed into my
hand and as it was dark I couldn't see exactly what it was, but from the
texture and taste in my mouth I knew it was only one thing. Blood. Thick
dark red blood clots. My girlfriend was talking and her voice was getting
more andmore distant. I stumbled to the bathroom sink, shouting her
name.
I thought I was going to vomit blood into the sink.
I turned the light on and looked at my hand and it was phlegm. I spat into
the sink and there was no blood. My girlfriend was saying 'we are never
doing this again, it's not worth it' and I agreed. She took me back into the
living room and I sat down on the sofa. I felt like my insides were filling
with blood and I could taste blood in my mouth again, and over the space
of about 10 seconds I went from being hot to dripping all over with
sweat. I've never seen anything like it. My girlfriend rushed me to the
front door and we stood by the open door until I cooled down. Then I felt
fine and we went back into the living room. This happened about 3 more
times. Every time I sat down I started to taste blood and then I got
excessively hot. I couldn't get the thought out of my head that I was
bleeding internally. I lied down on the sofa and my girlfriend kept
reassuring me that nothing was wrong with my body, But it was SO hard
to accept, when I felt hot, faint, pale, and could taste blood [blood taste
remarkably like phlegm]. This was all obviously psychosomatic, but the
two when you're tripping.
When my body was f*cked I felt fine psychologically, but for some reason
as soon as I stopped thinking my body was bleeding my mind went
totally. I felt like I had gone insane. I couldn't remember anything and I
felt like I had no remains of my old personality. I have a friend who has
gone mad, and this was on my mind at this point. To try and bring me
back we walked around the flat trying to do 'normal' things, like turning
lights on and cleaning up. At this point we had convinced ourselves that
we were no longer tripping. We talked about the mushrooms, but it was
like the mushrooms were a third person and was in the room with us.
Trying to do things which I normally do I picked up my guitar and started
playing, and then it was like a door had been opened and I looked at my
arm and my hand was HUGE!. All of a sudden it was like we both came
round from a trance, and I said 'f*ck, we are tripping our tits off!' And at
that point I was back, I can't explain the feeling of relief!
We decided to watch 'Harold and Kumar get the muchies' and settled
down to watch that. That was amazing, being IN the film, with crystal
clear sound all around you. We came down with the film and then
watched the sun rise and felt an amazing spiritual purity and freshness,
like being born again.

Now a couple of questions:

I've always had the feeling that i've got a dodgy heart, and some website
say you shouldn't take mushrooms if you have heart problems. Why?

How the hell did i make myself sweat so much. It was literally dripping off
me. was something happening to my body, or was it just panic in my
head that was making my body react that way?

I never seem to be able to piss when I'm tripping. only when i come down.
i just don't get the piss sensation, but I drink loads of water and then get
bloated.

i've had panic attacks on shrooms sometimes that i can't control my
normal bodily reflexes, like breathing or swallowing. any advice on how to
stop this?

i've heard about people on level 5 trips loosing total visual contact with
reality. how can they let go of their body and trust if to keep working.

sometimes when i trip i get weird ears like I'm on an airplane, and their is
a definite physical feeling. I have problems with my throat and ears
normally, but I don't understand what the shrooms are doing to make this
happen. is it just a rise in blood pressure or something, cause i get scared
that it's fu*king my body up.

sorry for this being so long, well done if you've managed to get through it
all.
Edited by: what?

[Nature Boy]

Originally Posted by what?

Now a couple of questions:

I've always had the feeling that i've got a dodgy heart, and some website
say you shouldn't take mushrooms if you have heart problems. Why?

Often the euphoria and/or anxiety of a mushroom trip can cause one to become so excited that their heart beats rapidly. I have experienced this several times. I have felt it in panic (Philosopher's Stones) and I have felt in complete psychadelic bliss (Hawaiian Copelandia).

How the hell did i make myself sweat so much. It was literally dripping off
me. was something happening to my body, or was it just panic in my
head that was making my body react that way?

The mentality of one can alter to such extremes on a mushroom trip that they might be capable of pushing their body to otherwise unusual states.

I never seem to be able to piss when I'm tripping. only when i come down.
i just don't get the piss sensation, but I drink loads of water and then get
bloated.

I urinate at a standard rate while on mushrooms. Often when the trip is very intense, it's difficult to sense whether you need to urinate.

i've had panic attacks on shrooms sometimes that i can't control my
normal bodily reflexes, like breathing or swallowing. any advice on how to
stop this?

Confidence and experience are the key factors to beating this. If you feel like you're in panic, find someone on a similar state of mind to confide in. This doesn't always have to be a fellow tripper, but it helps usually. I have had conversations with good friends who helped take my mind off the negative aspect of the trip.

i've heard about people on level 5 trips loosing total visual contact with
reality. how can they let go of their body and trust if to keep working.

I have experienced a sensation similar to a degree. It's quite subtle really. This usually happens if you are lying comfortably listening to certain types of music during the peak of the trip. The body continues to function like normal but the mind is full of imagery and increased sensitivity to sound.

sometimes when i trip i get weird ears like I'm on an airplane, and their is
a definite physical feeling. I have problems with my throat and ears
normally, but I don't understand what the shrooms are doing to make this
happen. is it just a rise in blood pressure or something, cause i get scared
that it's fu*king my body up.

My ears often pop slightly, not to the same extent as they would on airplane, but to an extent that it seems like my ears are searching for sound to be analysed due to the heightening in senses.

The throat problem sounds unusual. If I were to experience anything like that, I would probably drink some very cold water. Once I felt as though pieces of mushroom were clogged in my throat. Try not to concentrate on it, and it should go away. During a mushroom trip, it's incredibly unlikely that your body is in any realistic danger. Sometimes my stomach feels as if it's caving in. You need time to realise that it is simply a side effect of the psilocybin and that with a bit of positive thought it will go away.

[Mezza]

All that from 1.5g bro? Damn that must have been some potent fungi!

I've always had the feeling that i've got a dodgy heart, and some website
say you shouldn't take mushrooms if you have heart problems. Why?

Mushrooms can elevate your heart rate, like natureboy said its mostly from excitement. If you havea bad heart, you shouldnt get too excited either. If you really feel like you have a bad heart, you need to see a doctor and get that sorted out. Tripping with that in the back of your mind is a one-way trip to a rough time. Regular exercisewill help a lot too.

How the hell did i make myself sweat so much. It was literally dripping off
me. was something happening to my body, or was it just panic in my
head that was making my body react that way?

Most likely panic..you start sweating when you're really nervous or scared, think about it. Mushrooms can make you feel a little 'off' temperature wise but all out panic would be the cause of profuse sweating.

I never seem to be able to piss when I'm tripping. only when i come down. i just don't get
the piss sensation, but I drink loads of water and then get bloated.

Never had that happen, I urinate regularly while tripping. MDMA slows down your renal system, so you do urinate less freqnetly on that drug. I dont think mushrooms do.

i've had panic attacks on shrooms sometimes that i can't control my
normal bodily reflexes, like breathing or swallowing. any advice on how to stop this?

Experience and confidence. You have to learn how to 'guide' your trip while at the same time accepting whatever comes your way. Dont ever go into a trip trying to replicate a past experience. For me, that's always led to a frustrating and difficult time. You always end up analyzing every moment and comparing it to another experience and obcessing about whether you're doing everything right.

Ive found a better way to approach any drug experience is with the attitude that you're going on an adventure and you're going to make the best of whatever comes up. Remember that mushrooms, LSD, mescaline, etc have been used formany years and are generally very safe physically - all of the anxiety is in your mind.

If you are experimenting with any research chemical, always start at a threshold dose and work your way up slowly so you can get used to the 'frequency' of that particular drug and learn how your body reacts.

i've heard about people on level 5 trips loosing total visual contact
with reality. how can they let go of their body and trust if to keep working.

Your body will keep working because, under the effect of mushrooms, you really dont have anything to worry about. It sounds like you have some concerns about your physical health and need to get all that behind you before you can truly enjoy a psychedelic experience. Go geta checkup, you'll be glad you did.

sometimes when i trip i get weird ears like I'm on an airplane, and their is a definite physical feeling. I have problems with my throat and ears normally, but I don't understand what the shrooms are doing to make this happen. is it just a rise in blood pressure or something, cause i get scared that it's fu*king my body up.

Again, go see a doctor. Get a full checkup/blood panel, as it seems to be the only thing that will put your mind at ease.

Mezza