tried her first cigarette at a pretty young age (12??), didn't like it and ended up getting caught and hating it even more.
At 17 she would smoke while drinking ...which was pretty rare, and everyone would warn her that she would soon find herself smoking when she wasn't drinking. Swim didn't believe that, because smoking is gross to her, and only seemed palatable when she was intoxicated.
Swim did end up smoking. Then Swim quit for many years, and only recently started back. Swim is a light smoker -- about 1/4 a pack or so a day, sometimes more, mostly less.
Swim finds cigarette smoking disgusting. She cannot stand the smell of it ...hates smelling it on her clothes, and does not ever smoke in her house.
When she quit, smelling it on other people was so foul, Swim would choke. She can barely tolerate it now, even though she does indulge. For Swim, it's more psychological than physical.
Swim will quit again, as she really doesn't smoke much and pretty much sees no point in it. Swim doesn't want to be carrying around an oxygen tank and likes breathing. :=)
Swim would say of all the things she has done, smoking has been the worst regret, hands down. It's the one habit/addiction
that has gripped swim like no other.