Abstinence - Quitting Cannabis again - any experience?

[not2legit2quit]

Hi all

Won't bore you with the details of my history but I've joined this forum for support. I have a wealth of experience with all manner of illegal drugs (except meth, crack, and heroin), depression, and anxiety. I can both give advice, and willingly accept the advice of others. As such I think we can have a mutually beneficial relationship.

However this post is mainly selfish - I would like some help. Perhaps in the process, someone in a similar situation could join in and get help too, or someone reading it in a future google search.

I've been smoking weed on and off for about 6 years (I'm 23). I've quit before for over a year, and I've been back on it again for over a year now. Graduated uni last year, I live with my gf and cats, and I have a good job that I love with good prospects.

However I'm threatening all that with my habit again. I won't go into how much I smoke quantity wise but it's seriously threatening my financial recovery - after uni I've still got plenty of debts left over (mainly a 1000 overdraft, a 600 overdraft, and a 680 credit card) - so not huge numbers, and very fixable, but not while I keep this habit.

It bores the hell out of me. I don't really enjoy it, and it makes me eat like a pig which is costing a fortune (Cadbury's is expensive). It makes me more tired at work which ultimately lowers my productivity and focus, it means certain things in the house take a couple of days more to get done than they should, and it means bills can be a problem (which they have no reason to be).

I'm not lazy, I'm outgoing, and I've recovered my life from a serious social anxiety disorder (been on Escitalopram for 4 years now, currently weaning myself off for good). My gf and I have decent jobs and we're rapidly going "up" in our careers. I have everything to be happy about and nothing to moan about, compared to most.

Rather than give you pages and pages of autobiographical tedium to trawl through, the point is that I need to quit again. I can't moan about finances as it will render me a total hypocrite. My problems are my fault, and only I have the solution. It's a stupid habit I associate with relaxing and it's not a good road to go down. I've seen too many of my friends' lives ruined by drugs (mainly coke *spit*) and could easily have done the same.

I guess I'm not expecting anything out of the thread other than someone to listen - egotistical as that is, I've been to NA meetings in the past but never really got on board with it as I couldn't get round the religious undertones. Stubborn I know. So I'll give this a try and hopefully update you regularly on my progress.

I'm going to stop once this ten has finished which is tomorrow night basically. I hope this hasn't bored anyone and please by all means if you have any experience like this let me know.

And finally, no disrespect to any recovering heroin/meth etc addicts - Weed can be just as destructive and controlling.

Regards
Matt

not2legit2quit added 32 Minutes and 15 Seconds later...

Regards to my reputation - can someone explain this please? I know I'm a little flowery with my wording so apologies for that.

I'm a normal UK bloke, no propaganda, I can answer any questions you may have. I'm not ask Frank and I'm not promoting or condoning anything. I'm not pushing politics on anyone, I'm not being an idiot, and I'm just looking for some support.

Thanks
Matt

Reputation Comments on this post:

	Please take this post with a pinch of salt. I believe this is the biggest load of propaganda I've ever seen.
	Self-incrimantion plus that statement about weed being as destuctive as heroin or meth is ridiculous.