Thank you Rin_weh for taking the time to reply . Your not being a jackass .
is trying to figure out is if the neurological potential plasticity in the adult human brain , in areas that effect emotional regulation / behavior , is reduced because of repeated neglect / abuse during the birth to three years (brain formation) stage .
Swim thinks later drug
/alcohol use could be a result of genetic predisposition , environmental and chance . Swim would like to focus on the former though .
Swim isnt sure if she's completely looking at things from the wrong angle or not , or even if its the Hypothalamus-Pituritury-Adrenal axis area she should be focussing on regarding the neurological side of things .
So .. Swim decided to write to a few scientists , psychologists , and therapists . Swim doesnt know if its appropriate to name names , but she has had her first response . More of a pointer really . Her first response was from a psychologist/therapist .
His advice was to read the book The Developing Mind . How Relationships and The Brain Interact to Shape Who we Are . By Daniel J Siegel MD . Guildford Press 1999 . Especially chapters three and four .
Swim hasnt got the money for the book yet , but has found parts of it online and it does look interesting , is written in a relatively easy to understand way , and adds a psychological perspective on behaviors without dismissing genetics .
Swim will report more when she has read the whole book .
Swim did find a bit that didnt look quite so positive on the efffects of repeated chronic neglect / abuse in the very early years of brain formation on potential adult plasticity .
Swim also found some intersting reasons/theories for avoident , dismissive behaviors etc and would recommend anyone labelled under the DSM Cryteria to take a look at this book .
Anyway , basically , Swim thinks its a path worth continuing with at the moment , even if it eventually leads her to recognize that maybe she always will be limited in how much / for how long without slipping back , she responds to treatments .
Effective treatments is another topic as some point .
Swim is aware of the potential for false memories in hypnotherapy , and her memories so far are not through hypnotherapy Age Regression .
Swim would like to add that she has used AD's for emotional regulation , depression , anxiety and one did work to a degree , but Swim always wanted to sort herself out without them , its just that Swim doesnt know just how much she is capable of change , hence this plasticity inquiring . Swims biggest problem over the last five years has been alcohol
and Swim appologizes for turning into an overemotional dumbass sometimes when she's had a few .
Rin_Weh , Swiy add a nice spiritual feel to things somehow , thank you .
Swim has a feeling that her enquiring may not yeild the results she wants to hear and may lead her back to her original idea that the only option she really has is to learn to accept herself for how she is . (Swim fears this the most)
Swim wonders if wanting to feel better would hinder this , but thats for another topic .
Anyway , Swim will let Swimmers know of any feedback from scientists she writes to , who have done studies / trials in the area of potential plasticity in adults in these brain areas .
Swim hopes she's in the right brain area !
Swim has learned what an acronym is now