Hi guys, I'm new around here, how's it goin!! My pet llama got really into MDMA
use over the past year. He is 20 years old. He used to smoke pot
daily-ish on and off for 2 or 3 years. He has drank moderately, eaten mushroom 7 or 8 times, and LSD
4 times. I'll go thru his entire history of MDMA usage in case that might help.
NYE 08 (Disco biscuits concert. hell ya) -- 3 dips of molly
Oct. 09 -- 1 pill
NYE 09 -- 4 pills
That period of use doesn't worry me. But wait:
July 14-16 (music fest) -- ate probably 1.5 grams over 3 days, plus 1 LSD dose
August 8th -- probly .7 grams of really good sass
August 27th -- two or three dips of molly
October 7th -- maybe .5 grams of molly
October 23rd -- .7 grams of molly
and then two weeks ago, maybe .3 or .4 grams of moonrocks plus a tab of LSD
So about 10 times in all.
Ever since two weeks ago my llama has been a complete and absolute anxious wreck. He has always been a relatively anxious llama, and the combo of intense drugs
aggravated it to an extent that he talked to his shrink, and is now using klonopin
to "break the cycle" of anxiety. My llamas anxiety is complete and 100% over the fact that I may have given myself irreversible serotonin
damage due to my two heavy uses over the summer, and my two heavy uses in October. He was not educated about the neurotoxic effects by dosage, the dumbass simply thought if you wait long enough to serotonin to replenish, it will be all good.
My poor llama never wants to use MDMA again. He justs wants to live in the real world with his real emotions. He is not extremely depressed, and feels that if there was damage done the depression would be worse. However, he does get very minor mood swings, and feels rushes of "feel-good" brain chemicals at times, and other times feels a little more tired and out of it. His psychiatrist also is confident that no damage was done, except for exacerbated anxiety. However, every little thing that goes wrong I attribute to my MDMA abuse. My llama has a very hard time achieving and maintaining a full on erection, and when he does, he cums way too quickly. Is this all in my llamas head? or is that another symptom of serotonin damage. Will my llamas anxieties diminish over the next few months? Should he just stop thinking about MDMA damage and move on?? so much worry. My llama wishes to god he could reverse time, but this is useless thinking. Thanks for any feedback from heavy users. Also, would you consider my llamas use heavy?? Thanks alot, my llama is really hoping for some answers. He's had some pretty dark thought loops lately.
Trey_anastasio added 334 Minutes and 17 Seconds later...
Ok so um... to answer my llamas question I just read this: http://www.drugs-forum.com/forum/showthread.php?t=96363
So apparently for neurotoxicity to be long lasting, my poor llama, Juanito, would have to take astronomical doses for days on end. This relieves my anxiety so much!! He still has all his conversational skills, memory seems to be fine, no extreme depression (minor mood swings, however)... just that damn anxiety.... I'm hoping after a few months of NO DROOOGS mi llama estara muy contento otra vez! If anyone has any feedback, lemme know.