i’m in love with a cocaine addict

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My boyfriend and I have been together for 7 years and we have a 4 year old daughter together. I found out he has been doing crack and coke 3 years ago. Since then, he has gone to different treatment centers, but manage to lose the battle! He started using again and again until I got fed up!!! He has been extremely insecure which brought on jealousy in our relationship. When we make love, he can't stay up and he then blames me for it. Part of me knows it's the drug that's doing this, but I can't take it anymore. I love him so much and I love our family. I left him a month ago, but he still calls wanting me to be there for him while he trys to get some help.

I've been through this before with him. He goes to the rehabs and after 28 dayshe falls right back in the traps. I feel guity for letting him go through this alone, but I have to keep my sanity for me and our daughter. I just recently joined church and invited him to come with us. He said he would, but I often wonder if he's doing this for me or for himself. He's a good person and a wonderful father to our daughter, but lately, he hasn't been himself since he started back using. I know I can't force him or ask him to choose, he has to want help on his on, but I'm afraid the worst may happen this time. Please, please someone help me to come up with a solution to help him.