Methamphetamine is killing my mind and body

[JonCoyote]

Originally Posted by slimas

I can identify with alot of the content in here dude, scary reading it for me cause I just realised some things about myself. Sneaking around, lying for no real reasons apart from pure selfishness, man the things I've done ( ....it eats at my soul still everyday.
I reflect upon myself when I was younger and I hate feeling the way I do when I see myself now. I haven't let it overcome me however, have held down a job successfully, got engaged, passed exams, bought a house etc so this proves that you can control it if you tell yourself when you want to stop and the reasons behind it. I have stopped on and off but the truth is I'm still on it but controlling at a level I believe I can manage.
So the good news is I reckon is that you CAN control it - all the answers lie within yourself already you just have to tap into them. Forget all the newspapers / public hysteria cause that don't matter nor does it help you. I found the real help was being honest with myself. Sleep plays a major role too - acentuates everything when you are tired, makes trivial things seem much worse. I always see things so much clearer after a good nights sleep.
Deep down though I know this is wrong no matter how I justify it to myself and with that in mind I know I will stop one day.....when I'm ready however.

Slim (NZ)

Hey this is serious......what your friend just said is so refreshing for swim to hear, its posts like those that stop him from his ultimate paranoid thought which is.... " ok swim knows swims an addict, but no part of his life is critically suffering,.....could it be that swims the only functional meth addict? or is it the drug fooling swim and swim is ''in for it'' worse than others? " Swim often wonders if it wouldve been better for him to not be able to function as an addict,Take the blows early....... because those swim knows that cant function fell out early and are already clean/out of jail/rehab.

Just a thought swim has sometimes. I havint fallen off yet because I understand my choices-
1. Living with it. 2. Living without it. 3. Dying from it.
Anyway though- For real, loved your input