Finally Got It Right and quit crack.

[lynnfromct]

SWIM said....

I have been addicted to crack for almost 14 years. I haven't been to this site since back in June 2008 - I was an active user then... but now - I can say I think I finally licked it.

Granted I was in jail the beginning 3 months. But now, it's almost a year - and I haven't had one even temptation. I don't do NA/AA - that drove me to use the last time I had any clean time. I do have an one on one addiction counselor I see her once a week. But I am doing it. And I feel great - except that I put on 20 pounds... but at least I am not wasting away to nothing anymore.

I don't know how to explain it, I am still bored now and then, and spend alot of time no the computer... much more than ever before. I am unable to work outside the home, I am agoraphobic w/acute panic attacks, both before I ever used and after - it's not a symptom of the abuse. plus I have trigeminal neuralgia it's often called the suicide disease... and I am allergic to the medications that relieve the pain... just for that reason alone - I am amazed I have come this far.

the reason i started using in the first place, was to placate the disease and just not feel the pain every single minute. but I am doing it. and I wanted to share it, because i am proud of myself. not gloating - but damn proud i have made it this far.