Journal - Tendencies of addiction?

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Swim wouldnt really call himself an addict, but he realised something scary last night. Swim hadnt been drinking for a couple of months, but this friday he got drunk and high and all that. On sunday night, swim was trying to get some sleep and all he was thinking about was getting his drink on. Swim didnt tho, but it was all he could think about and he didnt get any sleep because of it. Swim has also noticed this earlier, when he starts to drink, he usually binge drinks, both with friends and alone. Mostly alone.

One of the reasons swim likes to drink, is that he opens up more then and he also has a lot of feeling he never lets out. Its such a relief to drink and get feelings out of his system.

But this feeling kind of scared swim, the fact that he was thinking about it and couldnt sleep because of it. Swim is starting to think he might have some addictive tendencies. What do swiy think?