How to overcome "drinking to get laid"
See, SWIM would not say he is a real alcoholic, primarily because he favours marijuana. Alcohol gives him terrible 24 hour lasting headaches and vomiting - and that's partly because he doesn't know how to drink.
If he was at a party, he might drink three beers and go home without any problems. But he keeps going at it, getting hornier and thinking he might get lucky with the ladies. He loses reason and mixes drinks that shouldn't be mixed.
How's the saying? "Liquor before beer never fear; beer before liquor, never sicker." Some say that's actually wrong, but SWIM doesn't care anyway.
It's weird how SWIM changes under the influence, because alchohol gives him the illusion of self-confidence, and it things is, it usually works! He gets the ladies. But then it's over, it feels meaningless and above all, fake, because he was impersonating SWIM's ideal self (if that makes sense).
SWIM can also get really aggressive and full of rage, like he's possessed or something. It reminds SWIM of those old ads that showed PCP 'addicts' as total beasts out of control. It happens with coke too, but SWIM hardly ever does that. It feels like it triggers my manic tendencies (SWIM is usually calm and bored, does not take risks).
SWIM does nor like that a bit, because it has since resulted in a totaled car crash (in which I should have died, said the doctor), me getting into bloody, needless fights and of course, having highly dangerous sex et al.
SWIM's only reason for drinking is to get laid or close to women. He is cool with cannabis, but SWIM is clearly using alcohol as crutch. SWIM would ask, is there any way to overcome this particular problem, because it seems SWIM has linked alcohol = sex in his brain. He also wonders if any of SWIY might have the same problem and maybe a solution.
Thanks for reading
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