Experiences - Going round the twist

[cuddlesthefox]

Swim is an "ex" heroin and all round opiate lover with a burning desire to get swimself sorted out as fast as possible.
Swim loves DF118s and/or codeine but swims doctor will not give swim any. In fact the strongest thing swim is allowed to get off the doc is paracetamol!
Swim is seriously considering cruising a few accident and emergency rooms with faked broken ribs in the hope of getting something.
Swim is in the process of trying to get some dihydrocodeine online but this is going to take weeks!
Swim has lost contact with every dealer in Newcastle (UK) and really does not fancy hunting around pubs, clubs and bars all night.
And with every hour that passes, swims craving for an opiate binge gets stronger. This is not like withdrawls... this is a genuine craving.
Has anyone had this before? Out of the blue the desire to get high is just too intense to bear.
Swim would get drunk but everytime swim does he ends up being violently ill.
Swim's really struggling here lol. Swim even thought about glue or aerosol. Don't really want to go down that well trodden path again but needs must.
Sorry for this post being a bit random. Swim is not feelin up to scratch and posting stuff like this helps a little.