Life

[pancho]

is life really what its cracked up to be, livin same ol day after day, always worried someone is gonna catch you for something. theres just a point where life isn't fun at all anymore and you cant jus keep getting fucked up, everytyme i think soberin up will make me a happier person, i always seem to get back on a bindge state and jus try to get as fuked up as possible. its jus to much to handle wit all the drugs, law, gangs, money, bitchs, hommies. i was jus wit my gurl today and she's quiting everything kuz she n her friend got checked into treatment, and i was worried she would try to get me to quit. she is the last good thing i have left in my life. i know she wouldn't leave me if i still use . but i dont know if i can live this way anymore, right now i jus feel like givin up on life and say fuk it to everything. i kno i dont got much time left i jus dont know how i wanna spend these days