What have i done to myself???

[ToxicWaste]

My first time i took 3 pills and the time of my life.. everything was just fun. the comedown wasnt bad at all. The second time wasnt so good...


The second time i ate 8 pills over 3 days. The last day i took 4 and i didnt eat much that day. The pills was contaminated (pink superman pills) suspect serotonin syndrome. I was puking and drinking water the whole night, and my face looked really fucked up, a friend of mine called me a monster,and i used tobe goodlooking.the next week i felt strange. I felta slight rolling feeling the whole week.iwas so wasted, i hadpanic attacks so severe that i thought my heart was gonna blow out.


Now i have marks in my face for the rest of my life i think. Its like every muscle that forms the face has been cut offPeople have asked me if i wear maskara. and my chins dropped 2 cm down and my wholemouth has moved a little forward.my eyelids kindahangs out and i really look weird. when i shut my eyes i also move the part under my eyes upwards. my eyes feels constantly over-"used", tired kinda and i have totally blank eyes.


Im still sweating on my hands and it starts to annoy me. I dont wanna sweat on myhands for the rest of my life. when i look at my self in the mirror i look really ugly in some light settings. And in other light settings i just lookbluntwith innocenteyes. A guy asked me if i had looked my self in the mirror lately, i looked weird he said. Another time a girl told me i was very cute and asked me if i was gayAll this really depresses me.i justwant my old face back!. I actually feel very fine in my head, no problems there, its just the got damn face.


I have slight memory problems but its getting better i think. It was 2 months sincet that crap happened. it feels like im the only one in the world who is subbing about negative changes in the face. Are there similary stories out there?


Now i know why drugs is illegal, but if it hadnt been, bad pills would never had existed