Health - O tempora, o mores! (retrospective tolerance)

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Hi all. SWIM has about a 7 year history with psychoactive illumination. SWIM wanted to comment on benzodiazepines and get some feed back.

SWIM remembers his first experiences, he found a COMPLETELY filled (not rx #, COMPLETELY) bottle of lorazepam. He doesn't remember the dosage, but no matter. It was blissful and relaxing. Some mild hallucinations at times. Later, SWIM's mom was prescribed alprazolam, to which she quickly remembers disappearing. Other benzos have come and gone, not to mention loads of opiates and more-than-dabbling with psychedelics.

Now SWIM is in a position where he medically needs benzos -- movement disorders and bipolar, to wit. Here's how the order went: clonazepam .5, lorazepam .5, clonazepam .5, lorazepam.5, lorazepam 1mg. SWIM honestly can't say there's any sort of euphoria with any of these, even at 10 times the dose, or mixing with other substances (alcohol, cannabis, hydroxyzine-- one of the more potent antihistamines, even other benzos -- although I don't have much experience there)

SWIM reads all these stories on this forum and wonder how this could be. Is his other medication inhibiting the "fun" enzymes? Has SWIM built a tolerance? Maybe now I'm just an adult and the meds work like they are supposed to: to relieve stress, anxiety, and aid sleep.

SWIM would love any feedbacack. Why can't SWIM produce the same PSYCHOACTIVE effects with benzodiazepines as others? Chemistry? Genetics? Other Chems? Spiteful Sobriety Gods?

Peace to you all and please be safe!