Opinions - Mid life crisis and hallucinogens

[Diogenes1970]

Alright, swim is nearing 40, and swim is what most straight laced Americans would call a "middle-aged drug addict." Swim loves to drink and smoke weed. Swim certainly goes through any Vicodin with a vengeance whenever the doctor prescribes it. But swim wouldn't call himself a "drug addict" but swim knows that it's how society characterizes him.

Swim hasn't done any acid in about 10 years, and the last time swim did some acid, it had been about five years since the last time swim had done some acid.

Swim got kind of burned out on acid around 25 years old. Prior to that, swim had taken maybe, an estimated 300 hits, beginning about age 18. swim never did the megadose thing, but knew folks who did. Swim thought it was crazy.

Swim always liked acid more when at a concert or camping, and swim loved playing the Camper Van Beethoven song 'Camping on Acid' while camping on acid.

Swim got so accustomed to acid, that swim gave it up, or stopped seeking it out simply because it lasted too long, and because swim wasn't "learning" anything from it. Swim got to where he could control his trips very well, and let go when swim wanted to.

Now it's been years, and swim has fallen into a routine of work, bong hits and supper, sleep, work, bong hits and supper, sleep. Swim has been hankering or craving acid for a few months now, but swim doesn't know where to get any. Swim always hears that it's out of fashion now, and ecstacy and Special K are in.

Swim wanted to find some mushrooms and googled 'naturally occuring hallucinogens' recently and found out about Salvia Divinorum. It's perfect for an old fogey like swim, but swim still kind of misses the acid, because it lasts much longer and swim can work out some philosophical thought lines while on it. Swim also likes to write while tripping.

Anyway, anyone want to offer any theories on why swim all the sudden wants to do acid again after all these years? Back in the day, when swim was like 20 years old and tripping hard twice a week, it took a lot out of swim. I know it would take a lot out of swim now, but why is swim craving it? Is this what they call midlife crisis?