suboxone story: i need help and advice

[imyourlittlebare]

so i dunno. swim uses suboxone. He used 32 mgs a day. Is there something wrong with swim? he didnt do heroin. but he used very heavily morphine, oxycodone, and hydrocodone and the poppy plant. he used so much. i cant stress enough how much my pet monkey used. he sees that someones pet monkey that used heroin uses 8 mgs and wants to cut there dosage. swim has no intention of stopping. He is going to use this to maintain his life because he doesnt want to fall back into using. Swim cannot stand lying to his family and being as manipulative as he is. So he wants no risk of the monster returning for everyone elses sake. On top of that, swim had impulses to kill himself a month after his withdrawal before his second great fall (where swim used again just oxycodone even though he already detoxed). he thought about it all the time and used dxm, oxycodone, and some other medicine to try and get him to stop breathing along with alcohol. swim now isnt depressed and finds things managable. he knows if he went to counseling it would be a very hard long road and swim doesnt trust himself. He would rather use this therapy for the rest of his life rather than risk hurting those he loves, and himself. Is swim in the right here? This has turned swims life around and is giving him a chance for something good he hopes.