Living with amphetamine cravings 24/7

[izzy31]

SWIM feels like hes going insane from speed cravings - every two weeks or so he'll get really amped and then spend the next two or 3 weeks feeling absolutely nothing but the desire to do it again. problem is, its become less available and more difficult to aquire. he can barely function! all he's able to do is obsess over plans and thoughts about getting some! but he cant! and he cant take the cravings lasting weeks and weeks like this! ALL HE FEELS IS ANXIETY AND PARANOID DELUSIONS OF WHERE SPEED MIGHT BE! HES CHECKING PLACES ALL AROUND THE HOUSE OVER AND OVER AGAIN DESPITE THE FACT THAT THERE IS ABSOLUTELY NO SPEED IN THE HOUSE!!! he does stuff like check the same spot a dozen times knowing there is nothing there but is unable to stop looking! he knows hes being completely ridiculous and that his actions are entirely illogical but its pretty much totally involuntary!

he was about to go search for some in the attic, which he hasn't even been in since he started using speed, but still hopes to find something!!!

what the fuck is wrong with SWIM????