fed up and frustrated

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swim recently took some so called ecstasy pills that he is sure were not mdma. the reason being swim did not experience any jaw tension or gurning or eye rolling, which swim always does when on mdma.

the effects were that everything felt like it was moving past him very quickly, visual distortion (warping and bending of objects). swim did not have a good time and spent most of the night pacing up and down wanting the experience to end.

swim stupidly took the same tablets again in a smaller dose (2 and half, compared to the 3 and a half the previous time) and experienced a simmilar experience although not as intense or annoying.

since swim has had a lung infection and bronchitis which has left him feeling worse for wear and now has swollen glands and his ears feel like they constantly need to 'pop'.

swim is now unable to smoke mj anymore as it makes him feel uneasy, anxious and sick unless he lays down. and his head feels for want of a better word 'messed up'.

swim is fed up of this, but has since used some mdma, alcohol and cocaine, none of which made swim feel any worse, but were not as enjoyable because of this wiered feeling in his head.

the only cure swim has found so far is nitrous oxide which makes him feel reasonable for the short duration but then is back to this messed up feeling. swim is very frustrated and would be grateful for any advice as to cure this problem.