Has a bad dream ever ruined your day?

[Orchid_Suspiria]

I just woke up from an awful nightmare,not a nightmare in the scary sense but a dream reminding me of everything wrong in my life now and bringing it to light.Everything I spend my day trying to escape just comes for me when I finally escape all the hurtful thoughts during the day,I simply can not win.Do things that upset you seem to hurt worse in dreams because they seem all the more real?To dream of how fucked up life is and then wake up to that life again is the worst torture I know of.It would be different if it was my subconscious trying to help me solve a problem but this problem has no solution and its almost as if it is just doing it to torment me.To show me that I'm ruined and I can never have what makes me most happy.To think at times dreams are the only thing of beauty I have left.Even nightmares of eyeless,ghosts coming out of my mirror to cut me into pieces are better than this kind of dream.

Maybe its all just part of my punishment for being a bad person?Try to run and hide,no escape.I deserve all this I know.