I dont feel like me...

[Gareth]

Thanks guys, I thought it was time to check up here again and I'm glad
I did. I haven't had a chance to look up the website yet, antidote, but
I will right now.



I'm feeling much better though. Most of the sensation and coordination
problems have left (I practiced doing mundane tasks over and over to
try to recalibrate sense and coordination). I'm still left with a
strange 'apathy', which seems to be persisting no matter what I do.
It's a kind of lethargy. My brain feels like it wants to function at
60%. Maybe I can describe it as being INCREDIBLY relaxed. So much so
that it's annoying. Where as I used to want to find something to occupy
myself with, I can just stare at the wall, or objects for a long time,
drawing a blank in my mind. My emotion and motivation has been dulled
or removed. I can almost liken this to depression (then again I can
liken this to schizophrenia, trauma, nutritional imbalances, physical
ailments, you name it). There is no 'want' or 'reason' to do anything.
I've looked into maybe having a possible underlying schizophrenia
problem. Nothing conclusive but there are some symptoms which are
conducive. I HAVE improved over time though, so there's no reason to
believe that this particular ailment wont either.