Wondering about the difference: Ritalin - Adderall

[123Roberte]

First things first, Hello to all!

I'm a newbie so treat me good for the first few posts. Then do what you may after that.

Back in the day I was a daily meth user, snorting only. My useage was probably on the average of an 1/8 a week. Kept that going for about 2 years, then I got married, got a job, had a few babies. (well my wife did, I did have a supporting role though) then I just stopped. Actually slowed down to a weekend or party type of using. That slowly tapered off in year 3. Cocaine always made me tired and sleepy. It never wired me up. That's why the meth was my choice. The euphoria, the energy, the sex...Y'all know what I'm taking about.
That was 20 yrs ago. Haven't had anything speedy since, 'cept cold medicine and stuff along that line, which was not my intention. In retrospect those years on meth were my most productive. Ever since those days I have had the hardest time getting or having the energy needed (other than the faked kind when the mother in-law came over) to enjoy &/or do even the smallest of tasks...Gardening, garage cleaning, house upkeep, etc. All physicals showed I'm perfectly healthy.

Then in 2001 I got injured and started taking vicodin. That gave me the energy or the gumption to do things. Great, now that I'm injured I get the urge to complete tasks....Figures!

The injury turned serious to where I had to have my knee replaced twice. So now I take methodone and have been for 5 years now. My current dosage is 120mg 3x day. This makes me comfortable enough to accomplish the smaller tasks, but the desire or initiative went south. So now my Psyche gave me Ritalin (reg tabs) to try. 20mg 3x day. It doesn't help.

So my question is this. Did I ruin that internal drive & desire to accomplish because of the meth use? and Why then isn't the Ritalin at that dosage helping restore it? and lastly, should I ask my doctor to let me try Adderall to see if that works? My one fear is he'll take away my access to any drug thinking I'm searching for lost youth. He's cool, but I need to go in there with some knowledge, other than what the websites give. I want to hear from people who perhaps suffer this same problem.

Thanks for the ear, sorry to bend it so much just being out of the gate and all.