Usage History, advice needed

[richarduk]

Hi,

I'm really worried that SWIM has damaged himself taking pills - SWIM is (or was) a very intellligent person, gaining straight A's at school, and is currently in his final year at University. He has a history of anxiety and tend to analyse himself alot and worry. His interlectual capabilities are a very important part of his life and without them he would feel lost and could not see a future.

After taking some pills in 2004 (not many, about 12 over 5 occassions - the most he took was four in one go) he had a nervous breakdown, and was convinced that he had caused himself ecstasy related brain damage, and had therefore ruined his intelligence. After therapy, he realised that he hadn't, and emerged a happier person than ever before.

However, last year, he began to take pills again, and his worries have since resurfaced (it was a stupid, irrational mistake and he feels so much guilt now).

This time he took alot more - here is his usage:

He took 2 pills in a night in week one, and then took 12 pills a week later during a two day festival (5 one day, 6 the next).

He then had a month break, before taking four pills in one night, and then took three pills in one night a week later.

The friday after that he had one pill, and then had a month break before taking four in one night. He hasn't touched pills since.......

SWIM just seems to have a destructive side to his personality, and doesn't seem think of the consequences of his actions.

Although he got through my uni exams in January, he cannot help but feel that he has damaged his memory and abilities. It's driving SWIM mad because he can't work out if he's imagining it or not. When he's trying to write coursework essays he finds it takes him longer to think about what he's trying to say (although this didnt seem to be a problem during his exams......).

SWIM is not intentionally looking for reassurance but I suppose that's what worriers tend to do.... SWIM will never touch pills again

Any advice appreciated,

Rich