Issues with using friends

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SWIM IS POSTING BECAUSESHE IS REALLY ANNOYED. SWIM is planning on leaving her friends and finding some new ones. SWIM's friends 'were' some of the best she has had, but recently they are just addicted to coke. SWIM moved in with a friend months ago into a new house, and theres a person who lives near who deals. SWIM's friend has slept with him for coke, and she is getting worse, it only used to be one off usage but now she does it every week and this morning, SWIM went down staris to find it all over the table. SWIM keeps asking her not to do it in the house because she hates drugs.

SWIM had to put a lock on her door because she no longer trusts her new coke mates. Shes has got my other mates into it, and SWIM is starting to feel left out because they try and keep it a hush from her. And all they go on about is coke coke coke. In three months they have got at least 2 friends of SWIMs into coke, who would never have drugs and then last night SWIM was talking to a friend who said that she would never ever do it. Only to tell me that she had some last night, SWIM told her she was dissapointed with her.

So SWIM seems to be the only one in the group that hasnt been tempted to join the rest. SWIM is sad to lose her friends because they used to have fun but now going out and taking drugs at partys all the time is what they find fun. They think SWIM is boring, and SWIM is sick of making excuses to not go with them to the parties. She just cant be assed with everyone off their head. Another friend is always dissed by them because she always tells them its bad. SWIM doesn't say anything but she is sick of it. She just feels like they dont care like they used to.

SWIM is going to find some new friends since coke stole hers! Out of the twenty people or so SWIM knows well, 16 are taking coke. SWIMs friend list is getting shorter! So does this mean when SWIM qualifies as a therapist her clients are probably going to be her friends, probably. They dont even care that SWIM doesn't go out with them much, or notice, and SWIM doesn't care if they think she is not cool. Whats cool about coke?

Recently SWIM's 'mate' brought these two guys round, SWIM has seen one before, then the other started trying to fight SWIM's boyfriend because he wouldnt give them a lift down the road, SWIM told them to get out. And you would have thought our mate would have been on SWIM's side, if you get, but she fucked off with them to get her drugs. What is so cool about coke? Really, when you dont do it, and you see how people you knew change so bad it puts you off.

SWIM had to get that out, she is just shocked at the amount of people who take it! SWIM is doing psychology training to be a mental health nurse, what are they doing, they are all losing jobs and having affairs with married people, its gone mad! If you take drugs SWIM would really like to know the significance since asking her 'friends' will only lead to her being dissed about how apparently boring she is.