Weird X reactions

[tetz]

Hi guys, in my life i have rolled a total of 5 times. 3 of those times i went on bad ones, usually my bad trips start with me rolling having a good time then i get really mellow and dont talk and i just become overwhelmed and want to be alone, then i sleep, wake up with a headache and throw up. sometimes its just me getting mellow and not talking and being anti-social with out the throwing up part. usually when im rolling though i combat myself in my head trying to tell my self im ok and im not going to throw up ,which really bothers me. after all these expereances i always try to understand why i went into a bad one, i figure that the times i had a bad time, it was a planned rolling expeareance and the whole week until the day i roll i am very anxious and jittery, i guess excited. I also think that i think to much about avoiding throwing up and dont go with the flow, usually what makes me think of throwing up is burping from drinking so much water, and worrying whether smoking weed or a cigg is going to affect me...i have realized that when its not a planned rolling expereance i usually have a great time and feel fine, such as my first time, it was spontanious... im still very confused, what do you guys think?