Painkiller Addiction

[Timberwolf]

HI everyone, I am new here so I will try to make this short. I have been addicted to endocet/hydrocodone/percocet for around 3.5 years and I want to stop. I found this website searching for a way to get away from my opiate addiction and it looked like a good place to start. I currently take about 3-5 pills per day. I tried to quit cold turkey around 3 weeks ago but the Withdrawal symtons are horrible and I started taking them 3 days later. I do not want to go to a drug rehab center for insurance purposes and because I dont want to go to a hospital where people I love will have to find out about my addiction and I dont want to hurt them. I am 24 yrs old and I have a job and I go to college and I have a wonderful girl I am living with for the last 4.5 yrs and want to ask to marry me but not while I am an addict. I feel like I am throwing my life away .So i was wondering if anyone has any good advise, I prefer people who are former addicts but I will listen to anyone and I thank you for your advise.